chapter 6

Punishment is something only some deserve. But it feels as if everyone even the innocent get the punishment more then the guilty. For me this was on of those times. Where Jake and I were the innocent and his parents were the guilty. They should be charged with the breaking of two lover’s hearts. With which one is their child...

Why must love be so painful and cruel? Why did I and Jake have to fall in love knowing our situation? Knowing we couldn’t see nor be with each other. Curse this fowl world. Curse our fowl love. Curse this feeling of sorrow and hate.

Well like Shakespeare said its better to have love a lost then to not have love at all. Or something awfully close to that.

Which is another thing why did Shakespeare kill so many lovers in his plays and books? Why not let them love and are happy with their lives ahead. Is that what I and Jake are? I mean could we be a member of some author’s book and them being the ones to choose our fate? Think of how cruel that would be. I mean to be killed when you’re only 15 and 17. Neither man nor women deserves this. No kin or animal neither.

Then again I say curse this horrid place and all who take part. Curse to all who never stood up for love and for what they believe in. I even curse my self. Why? Well even I got scared in the face of adversity. I didn’t stand up, but neither did Jake.

You would think to lovers would have said something wouldn’t you? I mean he is his own person so why not leave and stay here. I mean I would. I would ditch everything I had for him. Does he not love me truly? Does he find my love a joke? Are we even meant to experience love? Am I distend to be alone? Do I even have a destiny at all? I mean I don’t want to be alone forever or think I’m in love and not be in love or he not feel the same way I do? I just questions and answers never to be solved. Confusion taking over.