To that thing called love

 

 

I'm afraid of you
I'm afraid you might just come up to tell me something
Something that will tear me down again
No no.. don't come close to me..
My friends don't want me to talk to you...
But i know they will be here if i hurt myself again
Stay away from me..
I'm afraid of what you might do to me..
You've already broken me..
I don't want you to cut me down again...
I wanna push you away..
Yet i want you close..
I'm so confused...
I'm running away from you
Yet i cry for you to come back
I want you all mine
Yet i don't want you
I dream of your passionate kisses..
But i fear your lips might be poisoned...
I want your hugs bad
I fear they might squeeze me to death
Secretly thats what i want
To die.. 'cause i know i will not get that beautiful life that i want
it's difficult when our eyes meet
i see through them my past
and it hurts..
My heart says it wants to be hurt by you again
My mind says i deserve much better
What wrong with me?