My Life (11-04-2009)

I wrote this when I was highly depressed, I fell in love with a friend and we became close. But throught everyhting me and her gone through the relationship was painful for me.

As the sky fell, the wind blew so harshly. I feel my heart beat slower and slower. My eyes searching for any comfort of the sky; I hear the painful screams of people as they panic. I gasp while my mouth opens and blood gushes, I feel the grip of her hand holding mine. I see the tears fall down her soft and gentle eyes, I smile to her as if everything were fine. My sight begins to blur, and I can see a light. A light that can save me, the pain i felt inside for so long finally seems to vanish in the sky; i hear her scream "NO!, Please! don't go". Tears gather in my eyes, "I Love You" she whispers. I feel the world at my feet, I feel my world vanish to the light.

 

My lonesome tears have faded in the dark, I hear the sirens of the ambulance get closer. "Just let me go" i beg weakly. She looks at the sky as if my life were already gone, I hear her scream at the world; my heart bleeds on the inside, I feel her lift my body off the ground as the ambulance finally arrives. "Your going to be alright, Jess" she whispers as she puts me on the stretcher in the ambulance. The darkness i felt for so long has always told me "You're always alone". I know that it is already too late; My heart barley beats, and the blood is already pooring on the ground. The blood leaves a trail, A trail of a broken girl who never knew she was special.

 

The girl that bleeds, is me. I cough up blood as she stares at me still with hurtful tears, "Jess, your going to be okay" i hear her whisper as she touches my hand. I look at her with a soft smile, and shake my head "Don't worry, I will be free of this pain" I whisper painfully. My eyes go dim, and my breath becomes faint, as I take one last breath of my mortal life. I die, and follow the light; She stares at my lifeless body as she squeezes my hand. She gasps in fear as she see's everything, everything she has done to me on the inside. And realizes the pain i felt inside was because of her; I did it so i can be free from the pain, free from her and free from my painful life.

 

She puts her hand to her side as her heart breaks inside. She whispers softly with tears "I'm sorry i hurt you, I couldn't protect you my bella". Thats all I wanted from her, is for her to see how much pain i gone through when i was with her and the struggles i faced when beside her. Now, she must carry a heavy burden on her shoulders.

 

Author's Note

she and i had a bond, She told me i was her Bella and she was My Edward. LOL, it's kinda funny because throughtout everything our relationship did kinda seem like Bella and Edward.

Reviews

[Roxi L]

This was interesting story, I liked the way it moved and it kind of had a poetic feel to it. I really liked this.

Writing keeps the dream alive
~Roxi~