There's nothing that can save me.

Sometimes, you go towards the pain. You keep doing something over and over again, even though you know it'll hurt. Maybe you're reassuring yourself that you're still alive. Maybe you have that hope that something will change. Maybe you for some reason crave the pain, crave the ache that comes to your heart and travels through your whole body, electrifying every inch of you and then pulling you under into the sadness. Into the darkness. Hoping that someday, someone will save you. Because you know, you can't save yourself.