Your School's Weird Kid

I've always been fascinated with eclectic kids especially where most people don't have the maturity to respect their differences. We all had them or were them. This one goes terribly wrong.

"People are fragile things, you should know by now.

  Careful what you put them through......"

                        - Corinne Bailey Rae, "Munich"

 

 YOUR SCHOOL'S

      "Weird Kid"

by Brjden "WearingATrenchCoat" Crewe

 

 

“8:48 A.M.”

            I Wait...

I wait in front of the

John Tate High School building, that I hate

Dad's 12 gauge Mossberg

inside the embrace of my hands

with a pain that I couldn't explain

but you know what?...

No one gives a damn

          So I wait……

And in two minutes, the bell’s gonna ring

And then the hallway will be flooded with so many

mindless sheep and prom kings and Homecoming queens the football team and wannabes

And I'm a kill as many as I can, so then I'll be free

     And I wait…

               Right here, at 8:48

 

because I hate the way you people stare

and try to escape my simple presence  

and point and laugh at me like I’m a freak

Or a beast that you can catch a disease from

If you got close to me!!

 

The teachers think I’m strange

and they treat me just the same

though they’re trained to educate me

but then barely know my name!

I just wanna be ME without having to be explained

Accepted as an original,

Without playing your games

Yeah my music may be different,

I think yours is as well

That doesn’t mean we can’t talk

And be friends inside of this cell

So what I dress this way?

And my hair’s the way it is?

But I'm about to make even

on all the evil you did!

All the names and the undeserved pain

You stupid kids will feel my, emotional torment

in the form of bullets pouring though your skin

just for ignoring it!

 

Mr. Fielder's first on my list

when in front of the other kids,

Told a “weirdo” joke at my expense,  

Without recognizing the damage it did

 

Laughed and laughed, they all did

as I sat with hidden tears

a quiet rage built on the inside for the past three years

 

“8:49 ”

It’s almost time…

But now I hesitate…

   This isn’t me!

Though I dreamed of doing this,

can I really,

REALLY GO THROUGH WITH THIS?!?

Condensation orbits my hands  

And I start to feel sick

I can’t do this

The gun is lowered and I seemingly quit

But I just can’t forget

The hurt received because of my unacceptable characteristics, feeds a hate to react deadly causing deplorable shrieks at YOUR expense and your momentary apologies and desperate, phony pleads will surely be, the very last words from you, spoken to me!

 

Memories of people pointing and laughing leads to visions of those very same people bleeding and gasping

And then I think of my father packing

that duffle bag and forcing me to leave

Just because I’m not the vision

of whom he wants me to be

And that feeds…It feeds my own need to now proceed with killing you all today

which will kill this demon inside of me!!

 

I want to consume their fear as I stand confidently above them as they cry

And frantically beg for their lives

Then I can laugh and shine inside

 

I want to digest the pictures I paint of the bullets devouring their flesh as their chests graphically explode as their bodies begin to turn cold, their spirits claim their inevitable death!

 

My adrenaline suggests an eager happiness  

I pump on the gauge as the red stick on the clock glides right past the eight...

 

  “20 seconds”

This is for all those kids who threw things and picked on me constantly, saying “Josh is nothing but a freak!

 

  “15 seconds”

This is for all of the school’s staff who said “Josh is really strange” allowing the other kids to laugh!

 

   “10 seconds”

I just wanted to not be treated like I was less than! Because I can only be me!

A free-thinking young man! Dad wanted a football player, mom never spoke up,

the kids wanted more sheep, but does anyone care

what I want?

So this is for all of the weird kids who their revenge!

Who never had a voice or parents to love them!

Who never had friends

who never got respect

or acceptance! ACCEPTANCE!!!!!

I JUST WANTED 

ACCEPTANCE!!!!!

 

3, 2, 1………

THIS IS FOR

YOU DAD!!!!!

 

***RING***

 

 

 

Author's Note

I remember my school's weird kid. Though I never bothered him, I didn't approach him either. He was always isolated and quiet and I saw other kids whisper about him and talk about him. I regret never doing or saying much to him today, but this piece is only brought about through my own imagination and books and tv; I could never grasp truly what goes on in the mind of someone at developmental ages of those in grade schools and how torment and not being accepted can pain children who for the most part, live to be accepted! I hope you like the piece.

Reviews

[Ali Heart]

This was just so breathtaking, suspenseful, and it had me on the edge of my seat the whole time. Poems like these are what makes me want to write so much. It is poems like this that just feels my soul with passion and inspiration. I could almost feel that pain and hatred that this poem expresses. I've meet a few people that could become like this and their the first people I make friends with. They also come out to be really cool people. I just so love this poem. This is the best poem I've read in my life! I am typing this review with so much excitement right now! Good Job! Lovely Poem! Awesome Write! Thanks for the inspiration!

[Brjden (Bridge-Den) Crewe]

That is such an amazing and flattering assessment of this piece. Thank you so much for it! I'm glad it inspired you and out of frustration I wanted to create something trying to dive into the mind of the actual 'villain'.

[Bud]

"And they're trained to educate me
but barely know my name"

There are no words for this most profound statement.....
Bridgey, you have a way of going straight to the heart and breaking real like...there's no escaping the truth with you! Excellent write...as usual. Never stop writing...the world would be at a loss!

[~angelalala~]

"This is for all of the weird kids, who wanted, but never took action, and got their revenge!!!!! Who never had a voice or parents to love them! Who never had friends, who never got respect, or acceptance! ACCEPTANCE!!!!! I JUST WANTED ACCEPTANCE!!!!!!!!" i'm breathless, literally blown away. this is so intense, so raw, so true. it brings 2 issues up that really haunt my soul: bullying and school shootings. in a lot of cases, i truly believe the shooters were also victims themselves. constantly tortured, sometimes, people snap. a powerful, strong, intense write. going in my faves.

[Str8jacket]

This is so deep in the mind of a tormented kid. The way you expressed his emotions more and more as time slipped by...that's amazing. This literally had me on the edge of my seat. Very well done! I'm glad you're back by the way :)

[Jared Hughes]

Wow. That was amazing. I really actually started to empathize with Josh. Of course killing people is no way to take care of your problems.

That was really awesome!

Jared Bryant

[Lyrical Love]

bridgey loverman...
you are able to broach subjects and details that most shy away from.
your story telling is (again) uncanny! the font changes and colors give emotion and tone (for me).
BRILLIANT WRITE!

[poetic soul]

The teachers think I'm strange
and they treat me just the same
And they're trained to educate me
but barely know my name!
I just wanna be ME
without having to be explained
Accepted as an original,
not like the rest of you lames!

these lines hit me real hard!!!! its strange to see you can observe such minute things and understand such discreet and hidden emotions of a kid who faces this in school.....which is called home away from home....its a wonderful write....the more descriptive it got, the harder blows it gave!! awesome!!

:) Smiles,
Poetic Soul

[BreezyButterflies]

wow.
gonna run a line here.
"thanks for the candy"
XP
really good though,i liked it.

[deeps]

Oh! my goodness bridgey this is so amazing, I like how you can write on topics like this, I give you
credit for being so stand out with this.

[Taylor H]

This was incredible. I just got done reading another peom about high school dramma but yours is was better. Its totally true about all those kids who get picked on at school and its a shame that sometimes the teachers do join in. Many students do bring a gun to school and not only is that sad but its also on the parents for not keeping a better watch on there kids and talking to the school about there problems. This was an amazing peom and i have many friends who fit into the category. I loved the ending as well, saying he was killing all those people fir his dad. Was his dad bullied at school to? or did i make that up when reading? lol. any who great job