Made in Taiwan ("I Lost" Vol.2)

Fake a*s love, made in Taiwan cheap bullshit!.......

 

"I'm so torn up now! Can't believe I lost you! Lost my best friend, my soulmate......I can't believe it's true!"

             - Anthony Hamilton, "I'm a Mess"

 

 

made in taiwan ("I Lost" Vol. 2)

by Bridgey "FourForADollar" Crewe

 

 

I BET SHE LIKES ME LIKE THIS

Too much of an Alpha Male

 to cry

But the memo came late to my eyes

And what took place

Was a great & disgusting feeling

at the same time

The taste of the sea's salt water in tiny increments on my lips

As I sit and repetitively, yet slowly beat the

top of my head with my fists

 

 

HER LOVE WAS

    MADE IN TAIWAN

 

Authenticity is a mystery and was hidden inside of

    warm kisses & laughs & intimate bubble baths

       and WORDS!!

 

OH MY GOD THE WORDS THAT I HEARD FROM HER

THAT WERE....

MADE IN TAIWAN

 

 

 

She said things like.....

"I'll never leave!" and

"You mean the world to me!"

 

You know, all that bullshit that various popstars continue to sing!

 

Does this mean that I'm stupid

for believing the things that I heard?

 

Her eyes were Made in Taiwan

 

because her eyes is

where I confirmed all those

Goddamn words I heard!

 

 

Her eyes made me feel safe, but just like something you buy that's fake, it would need to be replaced because after a short period of time, it would break

 

Her "love making"

was Made in Taiwan

She screamed like a murder victim

and called out for God to be saved

Then she would seizures

violently and methodically melt

into my sheets as her body would say

That it needed me

 

I thought her body needed me desperately Because she would breath heavily in anticipation of me gently

touching her body ever so lightly

Her Taiwanese eyes telling mine not to stop there, but now I understand it was a tease...

Because I see now it was just sex to her,

but it was love-making for me

 

 

What kind of a monster would do that to someone they claim they love?

Why tell me s**t that you don't mean?

And leave me to dwell inside of a shell

of the powerful man I use to be!!

You've reduced me to a never-was

    A grain of sand on a deserted island's beach

You were my purpose, so without you now, I'm completely worthless!!

THE ACT OF SUICIDE LAUGHS AT EVEN THE MERE SUGGESTION!!!

       I'M TOO INSIGNIFICANT

           TO EVEN KILL MYSELF!!!

 

I'm as little as this text!

               This is how small I've felt

 

A man isn't made to deal

with this kind of pain!

I don't even know where to begin to heal!!!

     I scream obscenities,

but it still hurts

I drink a bottle of Hennessy,

         but it still hurts

I battle mirrors and non-tinted,

 reflective windows

AND IT STILL F*****G..........HURTS!!!!

 

In love, now in pain...all because of her

Her love was costume jewelry, CZ wedding ring,  A swap meet  Prada shirt

And the label reads...

                                 100% bullshit                 

                                Made in Taiwan

 

 

 

 

 

 

Author's Note

No rhythm, no flow, just emotions. I'm not focused.......

Reviews

[Walkingblind]

This is you not focusing?

I love the flow of emotion I feel your anger, your confusion and your tears
streaming down this piece. You gave your all, YOUR ALL!! all you had, all you
gained, all you wished in the future to obtain you placed it infront of her and
she used to to dress her ego. This poem to me is like the sequel to 'vulnerABLE'
because the same power is there but just in a different way. Intense Bridgey I pray
you feel better.

be blessed

[Amanda]

despite the fact that you think that you have no rhythm or flow, it has just that....the flow of angry emotions and the hurt you feel radiates from this piece...it gives it a rhythm of it's own.

i feel the anger, the hurt...i feel that though you thought she was everything to you, she shot you down and left you a mess of emotions and mixed feelings.

you have expressed yourself so very well...i hope that you can get over this and not feel that you were the insignificant one...

Amanda

[Mason Vail]

I'm very sorry about the pain behind this, but your ability to powerfully communicate is in no way diminished. Pain and Anger don't need rhythm or rhyme. If there was anything lacking, I sure didn't notice...

[Bennett Logan]

S**t, man... For whatever reasons you wrote this, I feel somehow obligated to buy you a beer. Otherwise, I like the free form of the poem and the constant return to comparing authentic and "made in Taiwan." Good stuff, sir. Keep up the good work!

[perfectlymetiKulous]

OMG... this was fantastic. I really loved it. An especially great read after the night I've had.
My absolute favorite part:
What kind of a monster would do that to someone they claim they love?

Why tell me s**t that you don't mean?

And leave me to dwell into a shell of the powerful man I use to be!!

You've reduced me to a "neverwas"

-- very succinct. I can definitely identify.
Thanks for sharing with me. Brilliant as always.

d.

[QuietPoet]

Nice write. Keep your head up. Im sorry for whatever happened..

[Phantom Heart]

I can see the difference in this poem compared to your others. your words might have no particular rhythm, they may not flow according to the "rules" but the idea behind your words were both clear and flowed from one idea into the next, combining both anger and love.

[passion]

Bridgey...f'in ridiculous...i know you better stop lookin in my windows before you write...snaps, snaps, snaps, snaps....

[S. Allison (Ferrante) S..]

Well put.

[Bella]

This is so great! Even without a particular rhythm, it's still amazing.

"Her "love making" was Made in Taiwan!
She screamed like a Freddy victim and called for God to save her
She seizured violently then melted into my sheets and would say"

Oh God, I loved this part. This is without a doubt one of my favorites by you.