1Day, But Not 2Day

This is about a man conflicted & confused with what to do about his current 2 year relationship. Sometimes we become complacent with our "significant", and we fear forever, worried about missing something(or someone) that may never come...

"She's crying her heart to me, how could you let this be?

I just need time to see, where I wanna be......."

                                      Donell Jones, "Where I Wanna Be" 

 

1DAY, BUT NOT 2DAY

by Left Field "Bi-polarAsHeGetsOlder" McLovin 

 

I love my girlfriend,

 

and I know like the back of my hand....
That I plan to stand at an alter with her

exchanging wedding bans
one day........

but not two day!
I'm sitting at a coffee shop alone now, reading a book, zoned out
Reflecting about sexing her and how she moans out, but I'm shook......

I'm shook thinking,

"Damn....I really love this girl!"
"What wouldn't I do for her?"

I work, I go to college, wash the car, take out the garbage, I'm a go-getter, fulfill dreams, I would rob, steal, and kill things, I wreck n****s who're wreckless, if they don't get the message, that "She's mine homie! Now get ghost!" I let her in, let her get close, I love her, she loves me, I love hard, I love free, make our love work, I work to be, the best man I can so she'll make love to me, I'll drill bolts on a steamboat and toke unclean mill smoke in the hopes.....

In the hopes that I can give her everything!
I'll give her the whole world right now!......
But I can't give her a wedding ring?

But I plan to 1day.....but not 2day
and probably not 2morrow!!!!

but anyway....

My girl.....

She's the best thing that happened to a bum like me!!!
She's the apple of my eye, whatever that ever means, The Bonnie to my Clyde, the wet part of my dreams, The reason I "Get By" like Talib Kweli, me and her, we ride or die side by side, but geez!.....

My side can hurt sometimes....

And sometimes I think

she's not even worth my rhymes
But she is….I think she is,

but what I really think it is, 
Is that MAYBE I'm not even worth her time
MAYBE I'm using that as an excuse and I'm lying
MAYBE we're dying

MAYBE I'm trying to find

a reason for not trying
MAYBE, I'm blatantly denying

my obvious fear of flying
MAYBE, but MAYBE NOT

What the f**k is wrong with me?
I can't see.....

That I'm a lucky son of a b***h for her 
To love someone like me?
For 2 plus years, she been right there for me
And when I think about what I put her through,
It's so plain to see
She means everything to me,

and she's everything I need!!
So as I sit here at this coffee shop,

you know what I think?
I think today I'll cop a ring,

and get down on one knee
Look at the woman I love

and ask her......
"Will....You....Marry....M..."
And at that very moment, 
I hear a voice say "Excuse me......"
I "matter of factly" look up,

and you know what I see?
A sexy, little brown thing

staring directly back at me

She says "I see you're not using it,

so can I borrow that?"
I say "Yeah, take the sugar tray,

you don't have to bring it back."
Baby girl was small and petite,

but her a*s was fat!
Her hair was jet black in a curly blowout.....

I like that
With her thin, black framed,

reading glasses to match
Her skin was "Nia Long" toned,

with soft, full lips like pillows
And big holes in her cheeks

that beautifully passed as dimples
She was real cute…..

W/ her fitted, beige cargo pants

and open-toed shoes
Perfect "C" cups

w/ a brown t-shirt

that read "F**k Fox News!"
"GODDDDDAAAMMMNN!!"
I didn't say that out loud!

It's just what I was thinking
I asked her to sit down,

and she brought over the tea she was drinking

We talk....We love the same music,

and hate the same actors
Share the same laughter

and laugh at the same rappers
She hates Pretty Ricky.....
I HATE PRETTY RICKY!!!!!
She called them "Midget, little, no talent, funny looking jag-offs"
I THINK THEY’RE MIDGET, LITTLE, NO TALENT, FUNNY LOOKING JAG-OFFS TOO!!!
She thinks Family Guy is the "gold standard" of comedy
I THINK FAMILY GUY IS THE "GOLD STANDARD" OF COMEDY TOO!!!!

She says "The moral fiber of our society is equated with our regulations of what is allowed through popular culture, which won’t be solved until our parents start parenting, our communities reactivate themselves positively reaffirming the old notion that ‘it takes a village to raise a child’, and the program directors for major television & radio networks begin feeding us not ONLY what’s entertaining for us, but what’s also spiritually & intellectually good for us as well."

I THINK THE MORAL FIBER OF OUR SOCIETY IS EQUATED WITH OUR REGULATIONS OF WHAT’S ALLOWED THROUGH POPULAR CULTURE, WHICH WON’T BE SOLVED UNTIL OUR PARENTS START PARENTING, OUR COMMUNITIES REACTIVATE THEMSELVES POSITIVELY REAFFIRMING THE OLD NOTION THAT ‘IT TAKES A VILLAGE TO RAISE A CHILD’, AND THE PROGRAM DIRECTORS FOR MAJOR TELEVISION & RADIO NETOWORKS BEGIN FEEDING US NOT ONLY WHAT’S ENTERTAINING FOR US, BUT WHAT’S ALSO SPIRITUALLY AND INTELLECTUALLY GOOD FOR US AS WELL TOO!!!!!!

Heaven must be close B,

it's like this woman knows me!
This feeling is how it's suppose to be
Then my brain says 

"Wait a minute homie!"
You're suppose to be in love,

and there's nothing else to say
I thought I was gonna marry my girl 

One day, but not Two day
(and probably not 2morrow) but anyway
Should I let baby girl here get away? 
Or should I try and make her stay?
Or should I stay with my current girl

until I'm old and gray?
I feel sick B!!
I think baby girl here will get with me
But will she stick with me?
And that's when it hits me.......

SHE'S JUST A FANTASY
Her grass just looks greener.....from A FAR
It's no mirage,

it's just that another person's house

just looks cleaner......from A FAR

And as far as I know, baby girl here is a hoe, & she's selling it for dough, or she's a chick with a dick, or has two conjoined toes or sniffs blow up her nose, or she grows and sells the s**t, or she throws massive fits & pick fights just for kicks, or she’ll stalk & blow a n***a up if he packs & tries to go, or she can burn a n***a's dick, or she can cut off the s**t, or she can spend all my money, or her food can taste funny, or she can leave me all alone with no home & clothes bummy, or she can play a bunch of games, or she can try and cast a "hex", or when we're in the middle of having sex, she can call out the wrong name!.....So as far as I know, she can go be a hoe, weird toes, sniff blow, throw fits, burn the food and a dick, stalk n****s, voodoo child, forget my name, spend HIS dough & all of those miscellaneous things cause in the end.....I DON'T KNOW!!!!

And that's the thing......

I don't know, but see,
I do know what's waiting

at home for me!

Good Ol' Faithful Love!
She puts up with my s**t, 
Cooks me good food, takes care of me when I'm sick
She helps me with my tie, holds me down when I cry
And in bed, she knows all those little, dirty things I like

She's always there for me, 

      Even when maybe

she shouldn't be

She's unappreciated.....I'm sincerely sorry
This is my uninitiated, unapologetic apology
A scoreboard to record my "

Bridgey Fucked Up" anthology
How old is too old for the fantasy?
How unfair is too unfair for her?
How long can I wait for something

I already have?

And how can I make my dick concur?

 

I NEED HER, AND I NEED TO BE "ME" WITH HER
AND I NEED TO BE FREE TO SEE WEDDING RINGS
WITH......HER

And who knows?

Maybe 1Day, will be 2Day
Well....Maybe not 2day
But not too many 2morrows

 

 

Author's Note

So one of my favorite movies is "High Fidelity". In one of the final scenes the main character asks his girlfriend to marry him. She never wanted to get married, but he asks because he says that he's tired of the fantasy. I wouldn't give the scene justice, but what he was basically saying was that he's tired of waiting for something(or someone) that may never come. I wrote this trying to express not waiting for a fantasy that may be a mirage or may never come. What if you have what you already want? I know it's human nature to upgrade. You begged mama for a Playstation 2 and promise never to ask for anything ever again!.....Until......the Playstation 3! But this really is an ode to appreciation and realizing the beauty and what's precious already in your life.

Reviews

[Lyrical Love]

This is so...
AMAZING! I LOVED EVERY BIT OF THE REALIZATION THAT YOU DELIVERED SO JUSTLY!
You once again stir up thoughts, and bitterness, and make me laugh out loud!!! I really appreciate your honesty, and humor! Maybe more men,( and okay women )should think things through before hopping over the fence to play in that artificial/bug infested green grass!!
My favorite...LOLOL!!!!!
And as far as I know, baby girl here is a hoe, & she's selling it for dough, or she's a chick with a dick, or has two conjointed toes or sniffs blow up her nose, or she grows and sells the s**t, or she throws massive fits & pick fights just for kicks, or she stalks & blows n****s up if they pack & try to go, or she can burn a n***a's dick, or she can cut off the s**t, or she can spend all my money, or her food can taste funny, or she can leave me all alone with no home & clothes bummy, or she can play a bunch of games, or she can try and cast a "hex", or when we're in the middle of having sex, she can call out the wrong name!.....So as far as I know, she can go be a hoe, weird toes, sniff blow & all of those miscellaneous things cause in the end.....I DON'T KNOW
You have masterful talent!

[tammy]

I liked the conflict in this piece. It can be so hard to make a decision even when you know the right anwser. (As a side note) How much harder is it for the woman to know she being all that she can be but, her man won't seek to honor you through marriage. Aren't you really saying almost but, not quite good enough.

[Fairy Tales]

you have the pure gift of the poetic Kingdom....you and your poems are hot and smokin!

[QuietPoet]

I absolutely LOVED this. I agree wholeheartly with what you wrote. To take notice of what you have right in front of you. Excellent write.

[Virgin 101]

You know what I didn't no I couldn't finish reading this because it reminded me so much of my last relationship. It took him nearly four months to realize all of the good in me versus her goods. Great f*****g write!

[Bud]

I read this before, thought I left a review...but all the same I really enjoyed this...your art never is dull or boring.

"So as far as I know, she can go be a hoe, weird toes, sniff blow, throw fits, burn the food and a dick, stalk n****s, voodoo child, forget my name, spend HIS dough & all of those miscellaneous things cause in the end.....I DON'T KNOW!!!!

This is the truth! Makes me never want to wander...scary thought.

"And how can I make my dick concur?"

If you can find an answer to this...outside of the thought of itbeing Broom Hilda...let me know...I can see fortunes in the bank! lol : > )

"SHE'S JUST A FANTASY
Her grass just looks greener.....from A FAR
It's no mirage,
it's just that another person's house
just looks cleaner......from A FAR"

And this is what it boils down to...just a fantasy...once lived the fantasy dies...usually a big let down!
Bridgey, you're work is phenomenal!!! Your questioning a thought is pure essence of heart. Love the way it flows with rhyme, yet very fluent in terms of sentencing. Outstanding work, my friend!!! Always look forward to reading your poems...you're a master! : > )

[Winter McPherson]

This is so funny and so true. I was laughing through the whole thing for the incredible madness of it all. Some people might say that this is a typical male thing.....but actually I've done this entire thing myself (without rhyming, of course). That part about how "baby girl" could be all of these horrible things is really true....you just never know. A lot of crazy people out there.

Another excellent write! Very enjoyable!

[April Child]

It's a dilemma and the conflict is all too real and being lived out every day. You capture it perfectly here. It's a thought provoking piece and I loved reading all the reviews and opinions as much as the poem itself. Great writing!

[Collette]

This one had me in a trance...I love the way you set up the complete scene through your speaker's eyes and thoughts. He's not perfect, but he's definitely not as bad as he could have been. I dig the turning point in this piece:

And as far as I know, baby girl here is a hoe, & she's selling it for dough, or she's a chick with a dick, or has two conjointed toes or sniffs blow up her nose, or she grows and sells the s**t, or she throws massive fits & pick fights just for kicks, or she stalks & blows n****s up if they pack & try to go, or she can burn a n***a's dick, or she can cut off the s**t, or she can spend all my money, or her food can taste funny, or she can leave me all alone with no home & clothes bummy, or she can play a bunch of games, or she can try and cast a "hex", or when we're in the middle of having sex, she can call out the wrong name!.....So as far as I know, she can go be a hoe, weird toes, sniff blow & all of those miscellaneous things cause in the end.....I DON'T KNOW!!!!

Nice little rant; I'm sure more women wish that men could pick up on things like this. Or perhaps vice-versa? Either way, again, I am impressed. It's impossible to stop reading what you have going. Love sure ain't easy, but it can be worth it.

[Siddartha Beth Pierce]

Great write! Really captures the essence of appreciating what one has even in the face of temptation. Nicely done.
Light,
Siddartha

[luke312]

Oh So Righteous My Friend. Ahh This Was The Boss.

It's true just cause it looks better there on the other side does not mean it is better.
Always remember what you have and had especially while you still have it.