A New Feeling

I never thought it would feel like this

there is an unmistakable kind of terror 

that comes with the giving away of a child

Some say that is a terrible way to describe this

They are not writers

So many questions and petrified realities run through my head.

What will my mother think?

Will my family be disappointed?

Will they understand that line or will they only look at the misspelling?

Why are they proud of me? I am only doing what I know.

To put all of ones energy and love into words

then to give it all away with both hands

is the scariest thing I have ever done

I should be excited

in most ways…I am

But there is a large part of me 

the part of me that sees those characters as my friends

and that part doesn't want to let them go

I am no Charles Dickens

I am no Edith Wharton

I am not trying to be.

I write books for the characters,

for the stories 

not for the punctuation

not for the grammar

of course those are important!

But if it came to a comma or your mother

who would you chose?

Do you have to think about it?

I'd rather read a book with great substance

than a lot of semicolons I don't understand

I read for characters

I read for stories and vibrant words

I read for pleasure and for education

I read because I cannot stop reading.

I write because I cannot stop writing.

If you want to read for punctuation 

you should pick up an SAT book

If you want to read for grammar 

I can direct you to a local english teacher

But if you want to read for passion, love, exuberance and pure emotion

I suggest something different.

Author's Note

I feel strange having my book published. I am excited but also scared to have it out in the world for others to read and see. I am not afraid of their judgement but just of the fact that these characters (that I have lived with for three years) are no longer just my own.

Reviews

[FreedomFighter]

You also have a way of words, this is definitely a strong read

[Brittany Bostic]

Thank you!