Lonely

Just a bunch of lonely people looking
I can see the paranoia brewing

I wish for some reason I didn't feel diseased
people avoid, drop, and ignore me

So clueless they lie to justify
but I'm smart enough to catch the lie

I just need a friend, not your love
I need affections, i need a hug

Relationships never seem to work
lets just be friends, avoid the inevitable hurt

We began so well but after one week insecurity
up all night fearing you will leave me

"No, Be your own"
But it sucks to be alone

"Ignore your emotions, they lead astray"
Then why have them in the first place?

Not enough time to learn from all mistakes
I was suppose to shine, now my heart shakes

You guys suck, taking my Adonai out of everything
how can the sick heal, days only spent burying

Now I still need a friend
Who can have fun, show me life has no end

Men and Women make everything complicated
We develop feelings making it all fabricated

I can't give them what they want
There is no real love, destined to rot

Should I keep the man who ignores
Does he actually keep me safe from my own horrors

Is mediocrity the best I can get?
Just simply someone who will never hit

Says he loves the God, but I can't see it
Is there not a man who shows it a bit? 

Says he believes not in love
Neither do I but i live as if, I'm not tough

What I would do for love is pathetic
I can't believe I'd do that, I'm so sick

Selling my life to pass the time and joy
All along I think I never loved that boy

Being the lover of the man who has me behind a cage door
Hands outside the bars "Let me go", slammed to the floor

The words said hurt the most
Rather be beaten than having the same mind as my host