Unseen

I was, I am, I shall be. I never was. I still am.

 

Guiltily I wind down the corridors avoiding every gaze

I feel ethereal

Unseen

Passing the lockers I am as a ghost

I am without attention

 

The library

The library is my unsung sanctuary

In the pages of its books I find friends

From every corner I am silently laughed at

Suddenly being unseen seems preferable

 

So alone

Yet so numb and without awareness to lament it

I do not know what it is to be normal

I come to despise the very word

My heart grows yet harder

 

The days are like months

I would rather they were ignoring me

I know the truth is they just don’t notice

I can’t pretend to know why

I am to blame

 

Without fanfare or fuss I depart this place

Into my chrysalis I crawl

I am gone

I cease

Stop

 

Much pain follows

Loss

Acceptance

Rebuild

New model

 

My past hangs over me no longer

I am vibrant and dynamic

I create fireworks wherever I walk

I am alive

I am me

Author's Note

Thanks for reading.
Please; give me your views! :)

Reviews

[Frieda P]

I think until we accept ourselves for our oddities and whatever else we think unacceptable, we'll never shine, to thine ownself be true is what I read here, well done Brett!

[Brett Pritchard]

Thank you so much for reading Frieda!
Yes indeed, self acceptance is very much the message of the piece.

Thank you very much for your always valued comments.

BP

[MOON]

Great write introspective we hate being odd not fitting in and one day we don't care and glad we different.

[Brett Pritchard]

Thank you very much!

Yup, you've got the meaning of the piece in a nutshell right there, that's exactly what I was trying to represent here.

Thank you very much for taking the time to read and review my work.

BP

[I Am Svetlana]

I love the line "I so not know what it is to be normal." Perhaps because normal is overrated nowadays. Sometimes, being alone can help us find ourselves, the part of us we may have lost long ago. Numbing makes every seem alright, helps us relax as we feel the tingling sensation take over our body. It's nice to feel invisible, especially when you need it most and want to just be away from everyone. But if you're unseen for too long, people could forget about you and you also could begin to lose yourself.

[Brett Pritchard]

Too true.
I'm not unseen anymore I assure you.

Thank you for the review!
read moreToo true.
I'm not unseen anymore I assure you.

Thank you for the review!


BP

[Phoenix]

wow I love this...did you write this just for me? lol
I am not a butterfly, I am a Phoenix...but the transformation is the same!
Great work!

[Brett Pritchard]

Why thank you P. 😊
So glad you enjoyed it.

For me it chronicles that cripplingly awkward time that is (or was for me and those like me) the teens.
I never fitted it and hated myself for it.

Now I revel in being an outsider. Oh how I would hate to be just another sheep to be herded into a pen. Self acceptance is so important.

Thanks for the kind review!

BP