Self Forgiveness

I feel so weak, exhausted

My hand is numb, motionless

My life is obscured, my vision is blurred

Everything I knew now gone with the summer

My days are agony, now without any meaning

My words are heavy

dying with the blood of mine sheening

To me, sentences are nonsense

Why should they care

Comfort is only physical

compared to the weight I bear

The world is now only under my feet

not in the person's eyes 

standing in front of me

When I wake, it's not the life I once knew

It's not anything to look forward to

and I drag this spent body through the waves of life

being empty and having nothing left to sacrifice

These hands hold nothing but the past

and forgiveness to myself is the one thing I cannot ask

I see myself through withered eyes

In a mind that had nothing left but what's vaporized

My heart, hallow with grief

tearing to shreds with what is now only memories

What has become of myself?

I am to lifeless to care

I have no one in which to pride

It's only my sorrow that has been memorized

The love I once wore on my sleeve

is now lost in the sea

Along with any pieces that had been left of me

Reviews

[SmittyJas]

Your expressions are a fantastic whirlpool encircling life problems we all have disappointments in live our own crosses to bare the mighty the fallen on despair.

[Misery]

Another inspired expression of a soul's anguish.
Your words, dear poet, are sad and tragically wonderful dirges to my melancholy spirit.

[Miss Lillian]

This poem I feel is very relatable in some way or another. I really like the line, 'My life is obscured, my vision is blurred' it's a very powerful line. I interpreted it as what you've know has been changed so much you don't recognise it and that you're blind to what lay ahead, but that's just my interpretation.

[Phantom Heart]

I find this line fantastic. "In a mind that had nothing left but what's vaporized" :)