My lost childhood with my mother

Something i wrote back in 6th form ... written October 27,2005

I opened my eyes into a new world and  saw a smiling face looking down on me.

two weeks later,Ii was staring at the wrinkled face of my grand mother. where have you gone mother?

why did you leave me?

I had my first birthday. Now I am 2,3,6,9, still I cant seem to find.

what have I done mother? Where did i go wrong?

you missed my first game this evening. 

Don't you want to see me?

I had the highest graduation grade to go off to high school.

Grandma got me a nice gift.

Grandma was at graduation.

Mother won't you come?

Fifth form is here now mom.

I am 16 now.

I am experiencing sexual emotions towards the opposite sex.

I don't understand them really.

I need to talk. 

Please.....

Grandma is getting older.

I graduated at the top of my class with a certificate of distinction.

I am so proud.

Grandma is too.

I had hoped you would show up,

But you didn't mom.

You have been away so long, 

I scarcely remember you. 

Matter of fact, I don't.

You were around for only two weeks....

Years went by in University. I studied Law and graduated with a masters degree.

As expected, I was among the top performers at graduation,

Grandma didn't come though,

She died last Spring from lung Cancer.

But I think it was from a broken heart.

Work is great!

I have a husband and we are about to have a child.

Now you show up.

What are you here for mother?

You want to be apart of my life now???

I think not...

You missed out on so much already.

You would not know where to start.

Moreover mother, I don'y need you any more!

Author's Note

This is a bit of experience mixed with fictional attributes and fantasies...