I'm dead

Yall n****s ain't real you don't know pain. You wanna see pain then look in my brain. I swear you'll go f*****g insane. My thoughts will Make you wanna jump in front of a train. I just slit my wrists watch the blood flow down the drain. Lose all the blood now I'm layin on the floor. Paramedics rushing through the door. S**t looks like a murder seen all the gore. My arms are all bloody and sore. S**t hit my deep ya right in the core. F**k it I ain't breathing no more. Ain't living no more. Ain't suffering no more. Friends are saying "you were gonna stay strong you swore". I was gonna stay strong but that was before. Before all the bullshit, drama, abuse. Friends be like "man that ain't no excuse". Popping pills and smoking weed I got some substance abuse. My brain is a wired bomb it needs to be defused. All my friends wondering why I killed myself there just confused.