My dear Monster...

dealing with the pain... yeah... that pain

Sometimes I wonder if God has to go through the same thing with me at times...
You're here because of me
You're my responsibility
My obligation
Like an unwanted b*****d child, you pull at your chains
There's much you want to say
more pain than words
but if i let you speak, you would cut others down
if i let you go, you would tear me to pieces
What can I do with you?
I am ashamed because of you
I am broken because of you
I have no worth because of you
You are responsible for every sorrow
All I know to do is to keep you caged
unredeemed
unwanted
hated
weary
And aren't we just the same?
I must own what I am
It's my responsibility
my obligation
and so I pull at my chains
like some b*****d child filled with rage
more pain than words
unredeemed
unwanted
hated
and I'm so weary...
but unlike me, you reach out
you touch my face despite my tears
you lift my face and hold me close
you teach me and give to me what I have never been able to give myself
you rip my heart open
my pain bleeds out
I'm being torn apart by your love
I pull away
You hold on
I didn't know love until you
my heart had no hope of dawn
I laid broken and empty
and now I'm with you
bursting
redeemed
wanted
loved....

Author's Note

dealing with regret and brokenness and the idea that even at my darkest, I am loved...

Reviews

[Peggy-Lou]

LOVE
this
very
much
It has a lot of depth

[Joshua Clement]

Thank you... very kind words, and encouraging!

[Ashadan]

The title brought me hear and I ended up reading the poem. I truly seen the thing wherein the persona was in a sort of darkness yet the love is present to cover up something. Thanks for sharing =)

[Joshua Clement]

Thank you (My first ever review!) and thank you again...

[Ashadan]

you are always welcome