My mother

The pain behind my connection with my mother

My mother use to be happy with me
My mother use to laugh and play
My mother use to do so many things
I miss every single day
My mother use to hug me
She'd tell me things would be okay
My mother and I, was how it was
And I can't remember when it changed
When my old dad kicked us out
Or the first time she said she hated me
From the scar carved skin Id count the tallies
But I know I'd skip too many
Through all those years I swear
I could slowly see her fade
The mother that I use to have
I'll never see again
Now I've gotten older I'm 16 as of now
I got a job and I was doing good
Now I've lost everything I had
My cousin was shot my uncle drowned
A year is all it takes
Of all the years I've been alive
My life's the only one I've wanted to take
 I cry so much and I know
She'll never know my pain
She took away my voice alas
I never speak the same
My heart's grown ever colder
I wish i wasn't as broken as I am
But without my mom to fix me up
I'll only be a broken man...