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Just something I wrote to my wife <333. I figured it was kinda poetic so i'd put it here.

I hope you aren't wasting your dreams on me.
I hope you don't just give up on me.
Please, i've really been starting to give a damn lately.
I can't picture myself without you baby.
I'm trying really hard,
I know I said trust me the same day I fucked up,
and that sucks for you to deal with,
and you have every right to be angry.
I get so nervous sometimes,
I panick so bad when things like tonight go on.
It's just the last coulpe days have been really bumpy.
I was so scared you'd flip.
I'm so sorry and without you I can't even do anything.
I can't do anything but stare,
and tell myself to stay awake,
for the simple sake of showing you I care.
At the least, I can do that for you.
I really want to come still,
I want to see you.
I would be there in about half an hour,
I would run, fast.
If I can't handle it it's because I smoke too f*****g much,
but i'd make myself,
to see you.
I want you to trust me still...
I know you probably won't,
but i've been doing everything right,
and I promise.
I would do anything in the whole world to prove that to you,
so you don't doubt me.
I get scared.
We don't have times like this that often.
I don't want you to leave me,
and it's just I don't think you want to be with me.
I love you more than anyone ever could, and I don't think you want to be with me sometimes.
I've been trying so hard to show you how hard i've been working.
I want to be the only man you need.
You called me your prince, that must mean something.
I want you to love me, and only me.
See me, and only me.
Selfish, maybe,
but in all it's entirity,
I love you more than anything baby.
I don't know what I could possibly say to make you stay,
but I hope you couldn't live without me either way,
because i'm not a liar.
I lied, but i'm not a liar.
I'm an a*****e, not a liar.
I'll tell you everything you need to know when I see you...
complete honesty.
That's the best I can say.
I haven't lied to you about anything else,
and I know I kept up this lie for a long time tonight,
and that's probably one of the worst parts,
and i'm sorry.
I miss you,
and I hope you're dreaming of me,
and I love you,
and just don't forget, please.
Almost 4 months,
could turn to forty years,
I promise you i'll give you the best kind of love,
and much more praise and cheers.
I try to, and like I may not say specific things,
but I always tell you you're the best.
My best friend,
the best girl on earth,
with the sweetest smile,
and the most beautiful bright brown eyes i've ever seen.
I don't care what you say,
you have a gorgeous body.
I tell you I don't see anybody else,
and I don't.
Tick tock until I talk to you.
Tick tock until I see you.
Tick tock,
tick tock.
tick tock.
When you write it out it goes so much slower, but it's about the same either way I guess.
Every second i'm without you is just another heartbeat i'm without the person I love the most.
I know nothing can really make this better,
but i'm trying.
I really hope you can forgive me, please.
I don't want this all to happen again.
I don't want you to not trust me anymore,
and I don't want you to have another thing you'll use against me.
I apologized.
and I know I was pissed when you slept over chrissys,
and I know I was in a bad mood a lot of today,
but I had good reasons,
or atleast I think so.
I thought you lied to me,
but even so I really thought so I put it aside, and I tried not to think about it.
It's just that thing really bothered me in the first place.
I can forgive you and put things in the past,
and I really wish you'd let go sometimes,
if not this,
then everything else that's been in the past for a long time.
 I can still be everything you need.
I am still everything you need.
I don't really know what else to say,
I just hope you got to sleep right away,
and that you're sleeping well for these few hours,
because I sure as hell ain't, hah.
I hope you're having really beautiful dreams, also.
It's now 4,
so I guess I have to wait another 3 hoursish to hear your voice.
It's goanna be loooong,
and relentlessssss.
I just hope you know how much I miss you,
and I hope you never forget that,
or how much I care about you,
and especially how much I love you sweetheart.
I can't wait to kiss you later,
and see your beautiful face.
But just for good measure,
I love you <3333333333333.

Reviews

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This is a really good poem,
:)

[A.Low]

Damn this is deep
i feel the emotion i fell the intensity in oyur writting oyur apologies are long lol

its crazy you must really loved her i wish i could have someone like that