Been An A*****e Sometimes

I'm glad,
really.
It's cool that no longer are there
doubts,
insecurities,
or stupid mistakes being made on purpose.
I'm glad that now, there is
love,
hope,
and bravery that a man like me could never afford,
but still recieved.
Now i'm thanking
everyone
and
everything
for
everything
they've
done
for
me,
because I know that i've been an a*****e sometimes,
been a racist sometimes,
been artificial sometimes,
but no matter what i''ve said or done it doesn't mean s**t in comparison to what I am,
or what i'm going to be.
I'm both sorry,
and thankful.
I'm sorry for what i've done,
and I know i've been wrong most of the time...
been nothing most of the time;
done nothing, most of the time.
I'm thankful for finally not being another "much less than he deserves",
or maybe even "much more than he deserves",
but now i'm a "getting exactly what he deserves",
or atleast i'd love to think because things are so
god
damn
good.
Atleast for the second;
atleast for the moment.

(I'm not ready,
i'm not ready for this,
maybe i'm just not ready to give this one up yet.)

Now that i'm stronger,
i'm smarter, even.
I claim to be so many things,
and it's so good to know that I live up to myself,
instead
of
all
the
hype.
I'm just floating atleast,
and flying at best,
and I can't live upto all the hype.
Maybe because i'm too good,
or too bad.
Who knows,
but who the f**k really cares which?

As long as you truly believe in what has happened,
what is happening,
and what is truly goiung to come,
only then can you realize what is coming,
what is happening,
and just
what
you
deserve.

Reviews

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This is really good. I liked how you're apologizing about everything you've done and stuff...