To choose light or dark

A Poem by Boy of the red

I wrote this so I can remind myself the horrors of the dark. I wrote it to get the painful memories out. I hope you like it.

My emotions are my own

For that I cannot control

For that I cannot change

To be in the light or dark

That I must choose

I for one will choose light,

But I am no stranger to the dark.

I chose the dark to hide.

My emotion was new to me,

And no one should see,

See the blood going down my wrists

As they veins scream to be free.

In the dark,

Not even I could see.

My emotions scared me.

They would flow through fast and free.

Some would come and leave in a wink

That is where the good ones would be.

Some would stay longer than you would think,

Choking me, making my mind race and body numb.

Rage , Hate, Depression, Desperation.

These are the ones of who I speak.

I chose the dark ,

So no one would see,

Not even me.

But I ran away from the dark.

Opened my eyes to the light.

For in the dark,

You notice your friends knife in your back.

And you find yourself,

With your fathers gun off the rack.

I now live in light.

My emotions I can still not control

Yet I control who sees them.

My emotions are my own,

But I do not make them.

So I must cling to the things that make the best.

My angel,

Her smile makes mine all the bigger and more real

My friends,

They make me laugh with such glee,

My breathing actually feels free.

My music,

There sounds and voices fighting away my fears and my tears.

I must never return,

To e darkness from which I came.

It calls to me still,

For the freedom of hiding.

Hiding everything from even myself,

For the idea that I am fine,

Denying the pain I feel inside.

I cannot go back,

And so the battle goes on.

The battle of the light and the dark.

© 2012 Boy of the red

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Craba

very powerful and emotional read

Posted 12 Years Ago

12 Years Ago

thank you

Mark Anthony Games (Hum..

Holly Hell, I see myself in all of this, Written so much like this in my darkest days, though one of my 'best' lines I ever wrote was 'Only by existing in darkness could I come to appreciate the light, for without the darkness that surrounds the stars could not shine'. I worship all the dakness as equally as I do the light for they both gave me so much I treasure about my life today. You words show you have the power and ability to be what you need to be and not what society and some of its members expect you to be. The darkness is not a bad place to be but if your actions are made from dark matter in its entirity then that is where the problems arrise and souls get contaminated. Darkness and light, like life, is all about balance. Terrific write here my friend, very good indeed