Alienation

All that you have given me is poison,

It's effect so strong ...

No doctor can save me,

I’m a hopeless patient

I take my dosages daily

without prescription,

I drink patiently

every drop of hatred,

as  if it is of major importance

for the survival of my being.

I need it.. Inject me...

The essence of alienation…

Morbid connection..

I am a masochist

addicted to your venom,

Can not exist 

without you being present,

but when you are there 

I am suffocating.

In your cruelty 

I’ve found shelter,

In your lies rescue

from the emptiness

of my depression.

Cut deeper with the razor,

have no mercy, no worries..

Take pleasure in my pain

For me this is just another day

My hope is frozen

beneath the iceberg

that my heart is turning into.

I am numb

until the inner volcano erupts

You defy my anger,

until I can no longer take it.

Patience … I can make it

I’ve dealt with this plenty…

Here it goes .. as expected..

My stomach aching,

My heart pounding

thoughts racing..

Another item

thrown from the terrace,

Another cut

to remind of the menace

That my brain is …

and your deadly influence.

Under my skin

your flames ever blazing,

As the ice cold wind

of your words penetrate me.

Believe me,

you can do much better, I dare you.

Cut deeper,

I have nothing but a stone in there..

Inspection will show the truth of this statement.

Under a soul scanner I’d appear empty.