The will to live

For those who love their children
unconditionally:
__________________

To my loving daughter.

The will to live

First of days, I stood by her bedside. My eyes of tears could only beg,
"Please! doctor, don't let her die, Please!" To God in anger, my silent words were said, "all those I have deeply loved you have taken to your home in heaven, don't take her too, for I must go along with her."

In this cold and sterile room, I hide away inside myself. I hide from the noisy chatter, I hide from the warning alarms that beep and ping. I hide from the fear I can hardly bear and hours that are slowly passing by.

A heart now mended by sturdy surgeons hands which brought color to her face and peaceful rest.
I hold her hand gently and raise my tiny smile. Today was a better day!
The surgeons paved the way to life, the nurses asked her for one last task...to breathe, they knew she had the strength to live.

For 38 years I heard her voice, a voice of anger, or hurt, a voice of despair from sadness, her voice of happy days that went so well.
But tonight I heard her
(whisper)
the important word she spoke all her life..."mama!"
Our worlds began again.

Reviews

[emmajoy]

Bonnie, firstly, thank you so much for your message. And now, dear friend, thank you for sharing your beautiful, tender and courageous words about your darling girl. 'Mama' - fhat one word says it all.

.. n this cold and sterile room, I hide away inside myself. I hide from the noisy chatter, I hide from the warning alarms that beep and ping. I hide from the fear I can hardly bear and hours that are slowly passing by. ' Such painful words, such real words, Prayers and love to and for you both

[Miss Sharon]

This is so beautifully written and filled with a love only another mother could understand....and I do. Sending you love, hugs and prayers. ~Sharon

[Bonnie Paige]

Thank you Miss Sharon, my daughter can't walk yet but she is home and making progress everyday.

[Gee]

As EmmaJ rightly said, beautiful words.
Couldn't begin to imagine what you went through.

[Chris Shaw]

That whisper must have been everything. Hearing your name when you were close to losing her. I was in the same position with my own daughter twenty years ago. It was a miracle, she pulled through. Wonderfully conveyed Bonnie.

Chris

[Bonnie Paige]

So sorry you had to face this too. I hope in my lifetime I never have to face something like this again. Yes the whisper was everything. Thank you for replying.

[Chris Shaw]

You are welcome. Take care.