STRENGTH IN ME

Two years, a date so marked for ...backtracking!
Brave enough now to...perseverate!
A lost heart buried by...words!
Swiping past those written years, all my begging...why?
But I let my STRENGTH guide the way.

I praised you often and you took...pleasure!
Two and a half years flew past my fingers I…learned.
I played the fool for every season my…Shame!
Replacing my heartache with...emptiness!
No more tears, no one left to...trust!
But I let my STRENGTH guide my way.

I've called your name in my loneliest...Days!
I've called your name in my darkest...nights!
I've called your name in my...dreams!
Was I ever allowed into your private world, there was no...reply!
The order of your words faded to his...disappearance!
My STRENGTH replaces all.

Reviews

[emmajoy]

Two voices in different keys, Bonnie and, incredibly vocal. The way you've set out the wording.. adding the final words each as if a powerful postscript but an instant 'I can stand proud inferred.' Seems almost words called out with a formidable restraint then.. defiance that perhaps, more than likely, turns on the taps..until the very end when you stand proud - not quite healed but.. armed for the fall.out

Brilliantly conceived, worded and.. displayed.

[Bonnie Paige]

Thank you for your review. It's great when someone breaks it down into meaningful expression. I liked your poem called An ancient stone pocket size I could see myself wanting to go see that chapel abandoned but you saw so much life.
One thing, I still hurt but haven't shed a tear in many, many months.

[emmajoy]

You seem to be very able when it comes to your emotions.. and tis wonderful as long as its not locked away waiting to burn then fizzle out. To each his.. or her.. own of course. So hope things work out and into a wonderful luck.. you're such an and and wtty soul!! Take care, keep safe. Pop in whenever you want to. .

[Bonnie Paige]

Thank you Emmajoy for your concern. Under doctors care so I'm safe. Thanks again

[emmajoy]

Take great care of self, please, Bonnie. You know where I am.. if want to exchange..

[John Alexander McFadyen]

This has a sad voice, reflective of experience and sad disappointment and let down but indeed it perseveres and has a defiance as the protagonist finds their strength really does begin inside.

[Bonnie Paige]

Very good review, really interesting insight. Thank you.

[Einstein Noodle]

hi Bonnie! I noticed a review of yours on Wordman's pages and thought I would stop and read some of your stuff .. not sure we have met... The things that stand out in this one for me is the honesty, vulnerability and the turn in closing .. so many times heart broken expressions weep on forever .. you very cleverly replaced all that with your speakers strength .. i see and feel it flooding the scenes of hurt and a closed door when love was offered .. I feel the peace that comes with such a healing .. i also like that your title is integral ..small edit there "Strenght..." (sp) ;)
E.

[Bonnie Paige]

E, you have reviewed my work several times. Strength did I spell one of the words wrong. Writing and editing your own poetry sometimes works against you.
Glad you liked the poetry. Lately I seem to be full of words that must come out. So I write.

[Einstein Noodle]

glad that you do ... yes .. i realized that when i checked you oldest offering ;) i do that a lot around here .. have a mighty fine day ma'am!

[Abhilash Hegde]

Well expressed. We need strength to overcome our loss, fears and our demons.
A true heartful write with emotions. Last line is captures the essence of your write- "My STRENGTH replaces all"
Thanks for sharing!

[Bonnie Paige]

Thank you for your nice review. Letting go has always been the hardest thing to do in my life. Strength is all that I have now.

[wordman]

a dying love,the aftermath that no one want`s to feel,but we do

[Bonnie Paige]

Wordman always a pleasure to see your words. Thank you for the review. Always ready and willing to return the favor.

[wordman]

hey bonnie,just a stumble on life`s path,i see sunshine just around the corner

[Bonnie Paige]

😉 whatever path is left of my life it's been a thirty year ride I've learned to live with.
read more😉 whatever path is left of my life it's been a thirty year ride I've learned to live with.
Thanks again Wordman I got your directions on how to download videos. I printed this one out just in case I forget again.

[wordman]

choices,choices,choices we all make wrong ones,but we may be pre destined to do so,who knows

[Bonnie Paige]

The power of free will. Live, make mistakes, learn.

[Gee]

Hi Bonnie, strength spelled incorrectly in title :)
Good morning, hope you are well

[Bonnie Paige]

Thank you I looked at it then past right by. I'll fix it now.

[Coyote Poetry]

Hello dear Bonnie. I liked the honest words and thoughts.
"I've called your name in my loneliest...Days!
I've called your name in my darkest...nights!
I've called your name in my...dreams!
Was I ever allowed into your private world, there was no...reply!
The order of your words faded to his...disappearance!
My STRENGTH replaces all."
I liked the above lines and I do understand the emotions in the words. Thank you for sharing the amazing poetry.
Coyote

[Bonnie Paige]

Good of you to read my poems. This one seems to be viewed at a rapid rate. I didn't think I would put it all together. The words didn't come easily. But working at it til the end I'm glad I stuck with it. It's great to see the writers i've been friends with are still on this site.
Thanks again for your review.

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome dear Bonnie.