Pushed Away

Just doing some expressionless writing

I stood in line and got to the widow pane

Stood silent and watched with much refrain

A love lost to turmoil and abuse in relation

Knowing the cost of youth in concentration

Excuses to hold on to a given positive accord

Feeling ashamed of choices to grab the sword

Blocking the event and hiding the emotions

Still feeling deep but unable to give notions

The window was cold, I scratched at the glass

Peering in shivering as I watched the time pass

Knowing that I was again pushed away hurt

Now my heart learned again why there is dirt