Just Not Me

When you just feel like everything you do is your fault and you want to just give up on life....

I struggle and fight the ideal of being

Wanting a love to pull my heart string

A mutual connection, a bond so strong

That nothing can stop and stays long

A concept of giving a metaphor true

That promises made are seen thru

A life in a white house flowers glow

Shoveling of fresh dropping snow

A gaze in sunshine a hand held tight

The warmth of a body laying at night

No worries or care just two that belong

Singing a soft melody romance in song

Its not attention I seek its a love of life

A person mature that handles the strife

Held hand and comfort knowing a gift

Exchanging care without giving shift

My tales be told here in my writing

Always ends in somehow fighting

You wanted someone else you see

Another loving person just not me