Mental Abuse

Past emotions and reflections....

I was told for so many years I was bad

I was made to feel guilty always sad

I was torn down by a controller of life

With words and actions taken in strife

I was told I was worthless and ugly inside

Told people around me would even decide

I was told if I left I would always be alone

Told tomorrow I would never find a home

I was told my heart with all its passion

I was a joke a disaster of some fashion

I was made to give money all that I earned

So that she could spend it like fire it burned

I was made to pay for sex like she was my w***e

If I didn’t give her cash she would show me the door

Gestures of love were simply sneered and laughed at

Leaving me helpless, broken and sad right where I sat

Work was not a issue 2 jobs it made no grade

Making a penny less I would come home afraid

Everything done had its place in her rule book

Everything I had she would eventually took

Leaving me broke my heart filled with shame

She said that’s life so don’t make it a claim

Now I was asked if I still loved her inside

No I exclaimed loudly "I wish she had died".