how i truly feel

i take drugs and alcohol

to make me feel secure down the school walls

my mind and feelings on the line

for everyone to unwind

if what i said, was everything i meant

then everything i said would b everything i spent

all my life and the emotions twisted

the faces lifted, and the time uncontested

my life untested from the forces unprecedented

my faith, my hope, is a big cloud

filled with certain undoubt

or doubt about all our lives

and how we choose to live

our love an outbusrst of our lives

anyone makes me abbide

i'll kill them,  and what they waNT ME

to do, for them, for you,

for me, for all of us,

for humanity

i love them all and plenty of thee

of all the animals who couldnt feel thee

or see thee all the way  throuhhh