Never Trust a Happy Heart

This is the story of my first love. I hope you enjoy

Never Trust a Happy Heart

 

When we met we were mere babes

We could never have guessed who we'd be

All we wanted was freindship

innocents was bliss

 

As we grew our feelings became complex

Friends?  Family?  Crush?  Love?

Still too young to know what was happening

we grew more unaware

 

From woman to woman you blithely jumped

And I just turned a blind eye

but that couldn't last

We just avoided the subject

 

Finally she came and forced me to see

I finally saw what we were

leeches to eachother's love

making it impossible to see past our own world

 

I loved you

to know it was bliss

but to know what it meant was torture

so I detached

 

You begged me back

saying that it was just time you needed

you could learn to love me as a woman

... in time

 

I moved on

I think...

maybe...

I guess

 

She tore you apart

she made you cry as you never thought you could

you said you needed me

so I was there

 

Over and over I crawled back

glutton for pain

I watched you crawl back to her

desparate for love

 

I stayed

I watched

I hurt

but I stayed

 

Then I met him

Finally a love for me

a person who made me feel like I was worthy of gold

you didn't like that

 

So you'd had your time

you'd had your girls

you'd had your rock

and now you wanted my love

 

... how could I say no?

How could I refuse when I had loved you forever?

So... I kissed him goodbye

I moved on to you

 

Finally!

Bliss!

Perfection!

Love!

 

You became my everything once again

Everything was in perfect balance

but a kiss goodbye

was one kiss too many

 

Who knew you were the jealous type?

we fought

it got bad

I ran.

 

It was months later that I got call

the phone dropped from my hand

my last word... "Whatever!"

the last word you heard me say

 

Your mother hated me

telling me to not even bother coming back

i never forgave myself

I'll never be able to shake you

 

So I'll never trust a happy heart

You showed me how it could hurt

I wish I could see you again

but that will never happen

 

I still love you

Still think about you all the time

I'm sorry

...goodbye...

Reviews

[Chloe..Across the Unive..]

I did enjoy the story but not how and what happened.
You know i think many , me for one, have had a similar expierience.
Thinking this time will be better, letting someone go who treats you as you should be.. things are good ... for awhile.. such a sad ending.. a sad story.

Over and over I crawled back

glutton for pain

I watched you crawl back to her

desparate for love



I stayed

I watched

I hurt

but I stayed"

Such emotions well expressed. a wonderfully written poem.

Chloe