April 30, 2016

She sat there waiting. 

Like a lost puppy who couldn't take a hint,

but still hoping for the best. 

It was going to be another painstakingly slow day alone. She medicated with coffee and music the best she could, but it didn't feel like it was working. Mind swirling too fast to take a nap to numb the day, sinking faster than a rock thrown into the sea. She felt her face contort from sad complacency to a deep frown, and she stares out the window before retrieving another cup of coffee. 

She couldn't deny the fact she missed his company- among several things. She found herself asking herself why things had to play out the way they did, and the way they are. She felt herself getting dizzy from her own thoughts as she just wanted the wretched b***h inside her to stop screaming taunts and vile insults. She was beginning to not be able to tell the difference between her thoughts, and her split personality's she tried so desperately to keep shut inside for her destructive nature. She thought about letting her out, but quickly scolded herself with how stupid of an idea that really was.

Or was it?