In Zwei / February 28, 2015

awake to put my hoodie on

and realize it smells like you

not sure what to think of it

and not sure what to do

a heart with too many strings

getting pulled into two

honestly not sure

if i can even pull through

never thought i'd find myself

in such a situation

but against my own rational thoughts

it is of my own creation

why is it so hard to stop

and go back to simplicity

i don't know how to deal with myself

and the state of my own toxicity

i will always be damned even if i don't

and be just as damned if i do

just one thing certain in this swirl of thoughts

i really don't want to hurt you

i don't know how to feel

and i don't know what to do

how should i even begin to deal

when i think i just might...