Facebook poem

two year nightmare, finally free
a new day dawns, but now who do i be?
i lost myself a long time ago
trapped in a prison with no place to go

i dont know when i lost myself
a pretty doll just placed on a shelf
taken down to be pushed around
forced to be lost with no hope to be found

away from the evil and now so confused
so used to being bruised, used, and abused
trying to stay alone but it's so hard to do
depression rising and its hard to pull through

needing money bit i cant find work
i dont belong in a jail cell to lurk
whats one to do when panicked and rushed
i cant sweep it under and keep it all hushed

pregnant, broke, and on probation
such an overwhelming situation
i dont know what to do or where to turn
my life is ruined and im watching it burn

no fault but mine and mine alone
i wish i had someone to call my own
but enough of that- its foolish rambling
each passing day with my freedon gambling

the first nights star i wished upon
but all hope seems lost and gone
pleading with the sparkling light
i wished the two years away in the night

open my eyes with a tear down my face
knowing i cant wish myself out of this place
i wish i hadnt made so many mistakes
and i only have myself to hate

ive wondered what it would be like without me
but i'll never have enough bravery to see
feels like im dieing in this mental hell
and i feel to frightened to even tell

someone once told me gold wings are a burdon
sometimes i wish i hadnt had heard them
i didnt quite understand but now i might
when you get so tired its quite hard to fight

at the bottom the rocks are sharp
quite a long ways from heavens harp
nearly fatal they all cut deep
and makes you want to fall in the endless sleep

no one was there to catch when i fell
but its due justice as far as i can tell
for some year ago my promise was broken
and for that mistake karma has spoken

for the people who are tagged- you are for a reason
i probably havent talked to you in quite a few seasons
every one of you is dear to me
i know i havent shown it but soon i hope you'll see

this may be overwhelming for quite a few
i am heavily sorry if this is for you
all these feeling crammed in one post
but i guess you deserve to know the thoughts this shattered heart hosts

on and on the rambling goes
when will it stop? i dont really know
so much anger, so much fear
so much depression and so many tears

im probably scared of your thoughts if you're tagged in this post
it took allot of courage because i care for you the most
im sorry for the distance and all i niglected
i know friendships arent the same and everything was effected

im probably boring you all half to death
so i'll finish this off with what thoughts i have left
this journey's been dark and bloody has been the fall
i hope you take me back for i deeply miss you all

Reviews

[Elinor Williams]

Very surreal, very nice :')

[Blut Gemalt Rosen]

Thank you. :))

[lovlygirl212]

Hahahahahaha
Cool a*s poem :)

[Blut Gemalt Rosen]

thank you. i wrote this within the first week of leaving me ex.