Am I a coward?

What happens when the words have no meaning?

When the emotions have ran dry,

What should I do when faking a smile becomes so common,

That my life is a stupid lie.

 

The tears don't flow,

No need anymore,

Im used to the pain,

The feeling is like home.

 

The spark in my blue eyes,

Is now just a bleak, boring grey,

These beautiful scars on my flesh won't fade away.

 

I see you and Im in hell,

With your vicous b*****d smile,

You make my heart even more fragile.

 

People say suicide is the cowards way out,

To me it's a blessing,

So call me a coward...

Im going to find out.

Author's Note

In a bit of a bad mood, so I hope this is good :) enjoy x

Reviews

[Bertie]

An interesting read... For me it's full of contradictions and paradoxes...It also has a lot of lyrical qualities; it makes me want to get a guitar out and strum a part to it !
A good write :)
p.s I LOVE your username, "BlueberryKisses"; I just think it's brilliant !

[Kelsie Eileen Stark]

Very sad...

[SpokenWord]

I imagine heartbreak or something on that level can bring one to feel this way. I hope to never feel this way personally as I prefer to over come the pain to love another day. However I think the poem was good as it is.

[Jimmy Toots]

Religion teaches that life is a gift from God but there's always a point when you question the worth of this gift, the worth is to learn not to enjoy, life that is pain is a tedious emotional lesson. "vicious b*****d smile" top notch description, there's pure hatred in your words and thats brill. My congratulations on another excellent poem Miss. Blueberry :)

[quinfinn]

deeply moving and tragically sad poem. it makes one feel your pain and that is why it works. good job. oh btw, suicide.... not an option, it only works in beautiful poetry such as your own. let's leave it there for all time!

[Ravyne Hawke]

Captivating read.. I can relate well to this poem. Definitely a new favorite of mine.

[Helpless]

hope you feel better soon. this was an excellent poem though, very captivating!

[BigDaddySiddle]

groovy rhythm like! :D

[Allie :)]

DAMN! That last stanza is a killer! You're flow, and rhyming patterns in here was extremely good! I love it! This is fantastic!
Honestly, I personally think that suicide is extremely selfish, because you're only thinking of getting rid of your own problems, and not thinking about the pain and suffering you'll leave behind.
But I'll guess we'll find out. (I'm NOT saying to go kill yourself! I'd be sad if you did :D)

[Tasha]

This was really good.