The Best Of MeA Poem by Blu Maximomy upper back aches from slouching face buried into my hands I've not seen you in a year I've strayed from the path that leads to you I am not lost, not at all I am just cynical and clogged in a misty faith I know you want this too you want me to walk a dream that I do not own- that I do not know. writing poems. depth-less poems that paints nothing spectacular. outlining other people's burdens in a canvas for me to avoid my own battle I know you know this too that i do not make poetry to impress an audience I do not jot down metaphors to encapsulate your importance in my life the thing is, the words do not come easily anymore they stay hidden under a bed of rocks and drains me out when they're found shaking in my handwriting you do not come easily anymore like the way you visit me in the morning strolling by the dock your collar glazed with snowflakes our interlaced hands on my pocket to keep a part of us warm and safe I cannot find solace in the hope you had gifted me I am slipping away from the very idea of your idea of me I am no poet and I am hurting but I do not know which part of me is hurting. you have always been a kind person albeit stained with anxiety and sadness you have always been admired and loved for your artistic sensitivity which inspired my younger self. but tonight is different. challenging. but freeing. because at this rate, i am hating you. yes, it's verb in present tense. I am despising you. I am abhorring your being. i want this hatred to be naked in the light as blinding as possible. for you to see the turmoil clearly. i need this to reach you and give you an awareness of the state that I am in. isn't it unfair, that i am blaming you? innocent, poor you who only want what's best for me. rip open the cut and bruises that resfuse time to mend. that was your lame foolish reason you only did what's best for me. but you're wrong so foolishly mistaken. YOU were the best of me you bring out kindness out of my eyes, lips and ears I was simply beautiful, poignant and eternal because you were. but in the years you are nowhere, leaving me with your shameful excuses so please help me get rid of you tonight, this is the least you could do I want to live in the most literal sense where i don't float in a physical plane I want to grow a skin and be able to touch things and hold 'em permanently. To relish every second of each moment and embrace my finiteness I want to appreciate and embrace reality and find beauty in it and also, I want to find love again, free of your consuming shadows I want a real pair of lips against mine, and my hand at rest on someone's chest. © 2017 Blu MaximoReviews
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