Chapter Two of Forbidden Love

Jesse and Derek work things out and begin to date in secret. But Jesse continues to refuse to acknowledge that he loves Derek. The only time Derek can get Jesse to acting lovey is when they kiss.

 

Chapter Two

Jesse Kanzaki

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When I wake up the next morning I can remember everything vividly and I know it really did happen. I get up and get ready for classes. Tyson is already texting me which means I'm late, like usual. Before I leave I realize I have Derek Cast's classes first so I decide to skip the morning.

   I look at my watch. Second period will be starting soon. I close my eyes and put my arms under my head, laying under an oak tree. The wind ruffles my hair and my shirt. I probably laid there for thirty minutes before I heard someone walking towards me. When I open my eyes to look Derek is standing beside me. I look back at the sky, ignoring him.

  " You should be in YOUR class." I say to him

  " So should you." I replies and I don't say anything

  He sits down next to me, leaning on his left arm and looks at me. We just sit in silence for awhile, I can feel his stare. " What!?" I snap

  " Jesse..." Derek whispers, touching me cheek with his hand

   I sit up and look away from him. " Go away." I mutter

   I can feel myself shaking, my face feels warm and when I touch my cheek I can feel tears. Why did I feel like this? Hurt? Used? He doesn't really love me... But then why do I feel disappointed? I can't hold it back, tears flow down my cheeks and I feel Derek's hand on my shoulder, turning me around to face him.

  He looks at me for a moment before kissing me again. I immediately relaxed, I didn't try to push him away, I don't know why. I put my arms around his shoulders and we toppled onto the grass. We were all alone, no where near the school. Derek put his hand on my jaw and opened my mouth. Our tongues touched and it felt amazing. He kissed me roughly, our heads turning side to side. I held onto him, my body feeling weak.

  " Jesse, I DO love you. Don't think I don't." He breaths in between kisses

  I don't reply because I don't have to. If he says it like that, I believe him more than anything.

 

Derek and I began a secret relationship. No one knew but us, since, mostly, a teacher/student relationship is forbidden. It's been about two months since then and things have gone fine. No one is catching on. I spend more time at his place than at mine. Tyson has been pestering me about why I'm never around. I don't tell him the truth obviously. I only told him that Mr. Cast is tutoring me. It's not a lie either. I've been falling behind in his class. I get to his dorm at 6:30pm on Friday. He opens the door, he clearly just got out of the shower because he has no shirt and a towel around his neck with damp air.

  " Come in." He says.

  I walk in and set my books on the Japanese-styled table in his room. He walks in a few minutes later and sits in front of me. We begin with chapter 6. We sit there in silence for 15 minutes before I glance up at him. He's flipping through a magazine and I look back at my worksheet. " Um...  Derek... I don't understand this one..." I say

  He leans over the table, so close I can feel his breath on my forehead. He begins explaining what to do but I barely pay any attention. I'm to dazed out by his perfect body. He's fit, very fit. His damp hair hangs around his face. I could feel my cheeks grow hot. He noticed I wasn't paying attention because he looks up at me and met my eyes.

   " Jessie? Are you listening?" Derek asks

   " Oh, um, Yes...?" I reply unfocused

   He leaned on his elbows and leaned closer, smirking while kissing my quickly on the lips. I blushed and closed my eyes but before I knew it he had already pulled his lips away. Derek continued to stare me in the eye. I narrow my eyes at him in a way that he likes, his words not mine. He smiles slyly and grabs the back of my head with his hand quickly and kisses me. His other hand grips my chin so I don't move. Derek moves around the table and backs me up against the side of the bed.

   I clench my hands into fists, I didn't know what I should do. If I should wrap my arms around his neck or just leave it be. I slowly bring my arms up and without that support my body slumps down lower to the floor as I put my arms around his neck tightly. His arms are on either side of me as he continues to kiss me roughly. His tongue plays with mine and his teeth nip at my bottom lip. I gasp for breath when he pulls away for a moment to catch his breath. Derek breaths hard and I can see his cheeks are flushed too. My body has a sudden flood of needing. I tighten my grip around his neck but he closes his eyes and tries pulling back but I don't let him.

    " Jessie..." He murmurs

   I pull him back into me and forcefully kiss him. We've never done it and I want to know what it's like. I want him like never before. He grips my wrists with his hands and rip my arms from around his neck and pulls away. Derek looks at me with slightly furious eyes. I stare at him with confusion. Didn't he want me too? I try to kiss him again but his grip is to strong.

  " I-I thought you..." I stammer but I stop. I was to embarrassed to ask if he wanted me too.

   " I do. I do want you Jessie. But I'm scared to hurt you. I've wanted you for so long I'm afraid I'll hurt you both mentally and physically." Derek says

   I look at him in shock. " But why would you hurt me?" I ask quietly

   " I might hurt you physically with over-power-ment. And I don't want to hurt you mentally in any way." Derek replies, still looking into my eyes.

  I look away and stifle a laugh. " O-Okay.... Sorry for this then... I'm just going back to my dorm then..." I stammer as I stand up, grab my bag and run out the door. Not looking back. I was so stupid to think he actually wanted me like that. I'm probably just another guy to him to fool around with. I guess my body isn't good enough for him.

  

 

 

Author's Note

Picture is of Derek Cast. Sorry for taking so long with this chapter!!

Reviews

[chaotic katie]

Another amazing chapter, I enjoyed reading it.

[J]

Loved it!

[Jonathan Biswell]

glad there are ppl out there that write outside the box cant wait for the next chapter