Attempt Suicide

I sit in the bathtub

Wandering what point in my life has gone wrong

To make me cut and create scars

I cry as I sink more into the water

Closing my eyes and sink to the bottom, opening them, seeing the water higher then me

Being under water gives me faith, hope and goodness

It soothes me

My breath suddenly locks and I cant breathe

But I do not care

I want freedom and that is what I'm getting....

My body begins to prickle with the tiny bubbles from the water

I close my eyes and let my mind clears of all the troubles in my life, the pain I caused myself and others, each lie and heart break I ever made....

It all means nothing now.....

This life I'm in now fulfills me with its love and passion and conception...