I'll Let You Know (poem - 2013)

Just something I wrote when I was sad and annoyed one night.

I don’t know how to tell you

What’s been on my mind

Cause every time I try to

It never comes out right

I tend to overthink the obvious and half the time I’m paranoid

Over the littlest things

I try to get it out and end up sounding like I’m blaming you

But I swear that’s not the case, I’m just confused

So I’m gonna try this one more time

Please let it come out right

You need to spread your wings and fly away

Mine are still too broken to even try

And I know that I’m the one at fault

This time I’m saying I’ve had enough

And I know that’s just a repeat now

And I don’t deserve to be the slightest bit proud.

The reason I’m like a broken record

Is because I'm trying to make it become real

But it never is because it's still something I don't feel. 

So I stand here wracking through my brain

Trying to find the right words to say

I've improved a lot with all of your help

But I'm still in the cage I've built around myself

So I'm gonna keep on trying 

But I don’t wanna hurt you anymore

So if you wanna leave just say it so,

And when I feel like me again, I’ll let you know.