Forgotten Identity (2009-poem)

I will fight and never fall

Through the pain at every corner

There’s more

I will never surrender

Be the one on top of the world forever

You will never be better

No matter wherever I go

I will be stronger

Come out on top and

The only thing I’ll have left of me

Is my forgotten identity.

Author's Note

I am powerful

Reviews

[dw817]

Be strong when you're young. When you get older, while you may have more anger at the world, the strength to actually do something about it may not be within. Hang in there ! :)

[Be A Fighter]

Thank you :) I wrote that 4 years ago when I was 14. I'm doing better now and that'll hopefully show once I get this site updated to the present but thank you for the encouragement, I really do appreciate it :)

[dw817]

You're very welcome ! When I was in my 20s I had quite a bit of anger and rage about the world myself - today, it's all gone - I still haven't quite figured out where it went, but it's just not there now. Likely from beating up on myself - some people do that, they'd rathe hurt themselves than others.

[Be A Fighter]

I was that way, I cut for 4 years and had an eating disorder for 6. I'd always be there for other people though, no matter what I was dealing with. I've been clean for a year though so :) I'm doing well. I still have the anger, I just don't know where it is exactly. Just trying to figure myself out a little more ya know? :)

[dw817]

I cut myself most thoroughly 15-years ago - not good, i winded up in the mental ward for 2-months for it. Let that be a lesson to you out there, you act like a crazy person, you're gonna get treated like one. :)

And yes, I'm still trying to find just exactly where I do belong in the world. So much so I hear those exact words spoken to me at night, especially if I've had a very stressful day.

[Be A Fighter]

I've done a pretty good job at avoiding a mental hospital. I kept it hidden and then realized what I was doing and the people I was hurting about a year ago. That was a rough year and this past New Years day, I told my parents and got help before it got worse.
It's a tough process to find where you belong. I mean I'm only 19 but ya know :P I don't think you'll ever "who you are" I think that's always going to change and be added to. I don't think that ever really gets completed, it just keeps growing but you can learn to find where the traits that you have best fit in society.

[dw817]

It's not so much who I am, I'm pretty sure I know that, but where I belong. Chris once told me that I'm a 7-pointed divot whacked in with a hammer so many times by other people that I finally fit into the 6-pointed wedge where they wanted me.

There is actually a sociological term for this too called, "Maslow's Hammer," or, "Law Of The Instrument." Where if you are a bent nail in society, someone - somewhere - will always try and hammer you down to fit. :7

[Be A Fighter]

I'm glad things are going better for you though, that's good to hear from someone who has a history of dealing with what I"m just starting to get over. It's good to know that it gets better, maybe not easier, but better.

[dw817]

Quieter, not neccessarily better - the voices in your head don't scream quite so much at you and you learn better and bolder coping techniques with the problems and situations around you.

Experience may in fact be the hardest teacher of all, but BY GOSH does she get it into your skull how to learn something eventually. *Grin*

[Be A Fighter]

Woah...and we have a sociology fan do we? Very nice :) I've heard that hammer saying but I didn't know it was legitimate.
Well I mean...quieter's better than nothing, at least in my situation it is. I didn't know that teacher was a she...learn something new everyday! I feel so young talking to you just because of the differences in how you type and I type :P. Example A..I still use emoticons.

[dw817]

Anytime I get spanked in life, even metaphorically, I've always personified this as SHE. And don't feel bad, I REALLY use Emoticons. I was working on this project recently and planned to release it with instructions on how to use them at a later date, and this isn't the full list, I'm still converting them:

http://sites.google.com/site/dw8172012/pics/emoticon-work.png

[Be A Fighter]

That's so cool :) I like the guy with the birthday hat because he looks like he's just having a grand ol time and I like the one with the sunglasses cause he's just rockin it like "yeah I'm cooler than you and you know it too".
Is there a way to edit the "about you" section on my profile? I can't figure it out and I forgot to put something in it :(

[dw817]

Quite easily. Click on the big, "Writer's Cafe" up in the top-left-hand corner of the screen. A new menu will appear appear between your primary and secondary. Look for "Account" and click on that.

Your account preferences will appear. Type in the, "About Me" area to update your profile. :)

[Be A Fighter]

Well...that was a lot easier than I thought it was going to be...Thank you :)

[dw817]

Certainly. I'll write a post tomorrow about advanced tricks & tips you can do in there for adding all kinds of interesting things. Hope to see you there !

[Be A Fighter]

Of course :)