Hidden Secret

Broken, but not defeated,
I will not let myself die.
You caused me so much pain and misery,
You broke me down, but I'll build it back up.

I will not let you break me the way you did,
I saw your true colors, I found them the hard way
How did it ever get this far?
What do I do now?

Because of you, I find it hard to love,
Because of you, I find it hard to trust.
Because of you, I lost everything.
Because of you, I lost everyone.

I lost my way, I lost my life,
I know I cannot cry, I won't be weakened.
Every night I cry myself to sleep,
Scared to cry in public, hiding it every hour.

Because of you, I'm forced to fake a smile.
Because of you, I hate myself.
Because of you, I have horrible scars.
Because of you, I'm broken.

You should have known better,
You never thought of anyone else, just yourself.
And now I cry in the middle of the night,
For the same damn thing.

Because of you, I try my hardest just to forget.
Because of you, I don't know how to let anyone else in.
Because of you, I'm ashamed of my life, because it's empty.
Because of you, I am afraid.

Author's Note

Before you read this, I'd just like to point out that, yes, it is based around a song, but the song is what got me through a majority of the pain and sleepless nights. It explains it fairly well, however, I have changed a few lines to my own words to explain it a little better.