Fuzzy memories.

Mum <3 xxx

We were once so strong,

The bond was so hard,

so very hard to break,

then it all got tipsy turned.

You were hurting,

You won once,

But they came back,

With better weapons.

you got into the car, 

my memories fuzzy,

you smiled and said,

'It's only one night'.

But it really wasn't,

Was it? 

You lied to me,

you didn't know though.

I hate the smell,

too clean,

not healthy,

this is a place of death.

We're visiting you,

i remember faking a smile,

trying to pretend i was okay,

while you complained about the bed.

You told me to be strong,

It's okay,

Just another night,

See you tomorrow.

But it really wasn't,

Was it? 

You lied to me,

you didn't know though.

Next day we were woken,

Knocks on the bedroom door,

your here with me still,

helping me remember.

Then it hit me,

It didn't hurt,

Just numb,

Not like now.

The last time I saw you,

you had changed so much,

It burns to remember that,

I like the happy memories.

But it really wasn't,

Was it? 

You lied to me,

you didn't know though.

Family is something I want to avoid,

Not because I'll fail,

But because I can't bear to do it,

Make someone go through what I did.

What if I had to do it,

Lie like you did,

Even thought I wouldn't know,

You didn't did you?

Your body was a temple,

Not I don't know what,

What else can I say,

I love you and that will never change.

Author's Note

Bit of an odd one, slightly personal, what did you think? xx