Ist Collection-Torment

Pain, sorrow, agony, hurt, they creep in from people we don't know, the stab deep from the ones that we do. Always there knocking at the door, the one we can't shut to keep them out.

1^st Collection (torment)

HOPELESS:

Pain engulfing, tears never ending

Hurt continuous, happiness nonexistent

Depression weighs on, Gloominess encloses

Despair is apparent, hopelessness manifests

Pain rains down never ending streams

Hurt radiates everywhere, unceasing blows

It seems as if the world has ganged upon me

What use is there for me?

It’s endless this hurting

Hopeless this hurting

Fighting seems useless

No one to help, nowhere to turn

It consumes every waking moment

Happy moments diminish

Joy just fades away

Peace, was it ever there?

Pain rains down never ending streams

Hurt radiates everywhere, unceasing blows

It seems as if the world has ganged upon me

It’s Hopeless

What use is there for me?

 

 

MY PAIN:

I listen to the sounds of the Hollowing Winds,

I wonder; were they ever real?

Why did they leave me alone?

My pain is haunting me,

Pain,

It’s haunting me, why couldn’t they see,

I loved them so much,

I just want them to look at me again,

This pain,

It’s one that I’ve never known,

Pain,

It’s haunting me,

Can’t they see, it’s tearing me apart,

This loneliness,

Can’t they understand?

It’s haunting me this pain,

Why?

Did you have to leave me alone?

It’s haunting me this pain,

Wishing that they were here,

But they left me,

Can’t see a future anymore,

My pain,

It’s haunting me.

 

NIGHT SHADOWS:

In the room that glows with moonlight

He sits in the corner frightened

Shadows of the night surround him

Screams of fright escape him

Scared he crawls toward the light

Shadows spread and lengthen

Reaching for the boy

He whimpers and shakes with terror

Shadows grip him consuming him

As he cries in agony

Hope leaves him

Then

The lights come on

 

LIFE! DEPRESSING:

You sit and stare as people bypass you

You look out the window

The world passes you by

Sleep on a bed

Life leaves you behind

The never ending story

Life is depressing

Pain, death, anguish, terror, loneliness

The world is consumed with it

People crying, others murdering, wails of sadness

Cry’s of pain, screams of loss

The world seems to be killing itself

Life is depressing

Nowhere is safe

It happens all around you

All you can do is wonder will I be next.

 

HURTS AND SORROWS:

Pain became my friend that day

Sorrow my closest companion

Heartache my blanket

Anguish my sustenance

They turned their backs and walked away

Leaving alone in the cold

I was to blamed they claimed

For the deaths that had befallen us

And though I wasn’t there the night it all happened

I was to blame because of my absence

I walked alone on the path called life

I had no choice but to learn the survive

For I had to be strong for one day

I would exact my revenge.

 

I DON’T BELONG:

Sitting here among the crowd,
I don’t belong,
Lost in the sea of thousands,
I don’t belong,
Walking through streets with millions,
I don’t belong,
Hanging with friends,
I don’t belong,
In a world full of people,
I don’t belong,
Sitting here among the crowd,
I don’t belong.

 

I DON’T KNOW:

I don’t know,
where to go,
what to do,
I’m lost, no one to turn to,
Alone, nobody to save me,

I don’t know,
how I’ll survive,
if I can make it,
I’ve gotten off course,
all alone, separated

I’m on my own,
can’t rely of anyone,
no help is coming for me,
I don’t know,
that I can go on.

Lost, alone, afraid
fear engulfed me,
terror became me,
hope has fled me,
I don’t know what to do.

TEARS I CRIED:

All the tears,
I’ve cried,
All the blood,
I’ve shed,
laying in my bed,
were for you.

The pain that I’ve felt,
every single blow,
was because of you.

You came into my life,
All sweetness and love,
You inserted yourself,
into my heart,
and then you hurt,
finally you left me.

Every single tear,
that I’ve cried,
The Blood,
that I’ve bled,
laying here,
was all for you.

All the hurt that I experienced,
was because of you,
You torn me down,
ripped me up,
and left me for dead.

But I’m here to say,
I’m still standing,
I’ve healed and am whole,
I will endure.

All the tears that I cried for you,
are gone.
All the hurt I suffered for you,
has healed.

All those tears,
Yet I win.

ALONE:

She has no friends.
She sits alone up in the stands.
Forlorn she walks down through the hall.
She shops desolate at the mall.
Everyone makes whispers about her.
Her whole life seems to rush by.
She is ignored.
She spoke out people were floored.
She only said one simple phrase.
It seemed to be a simple phase.
Forgetting her is easy to do.
But when she spoke out everyone heard those two little words.
No one thought it meant that much
Since the bell rang after saying such.
But the next day she wasn't there.
Not many people seemed to care.
Until,
They found out she'd taken flight.
The day after she said "Good-bye".

 

SAVE ME:

I am a shadow,
no one sees me,
no one hears me,
Darkness had overtaken me,
I am nothing.

I am a shade,
drifting to and fro,
fading in and out,
Pain encompasses me,
I am a nothing.

I scream in pain,
No one hears,
I’m fading away,
no one sees,
I am a nothing.

Take away the pain,
pull me from the shadows,
Give me form,
that I may be seen and heard,
Save me from,
the nothing I’ve become.

 

I TRY:

I try so hard,
only to get so far,
I want change,
I go in a different direction,
I climb so high,
only to slide back down.

I try so hard,
only to get so far.
I determine,
I want to be different.
I soar for high,
only to fall back down.

I try so hard,
only to get so far,
little voices whisper,
give up, go home,
I ignore,
I continue the cycle,
hoping one day,
to break free.

 

 

 

BELONG:

I just want to,
Belong,
I stand apart,
wishing I,
Belonged,
I look on the inside,
hoping that I can,
Belong,
I watch them laugh in happiness,
In tears I long to,
Belong.

I just want to,
Belong,
Stuck in the middle,
I look behind me,
my old self,
still on the outside,
wanting to,
Belong
I look in front of me,
the me I want to become,
Old, New,
All I want is to,
Belong.

 

FORGOTTEN:

I am alone, as I look around the room,
there’s total darkness,
I call out, I scream, I shout, I cry,
there’s no answer,
As I sit here on this shelf, alone in the dark room,
Forgotten, frightened, depressed,
I remember all the times before,
when you held me,
cared about me,
laughed with me,
played with me,
hugged me close,
Now I am alone in this small dark room,
sitting on this shelf, forgotten, left to dust,
I cry, I scream, I shout, I call for you,
there’s no answer,
I remember all the times before,
when you held me through the night,
took me everywhere you went,
held me when you cried,
now I am alone in this dark room,
sitting on this shelf, forgotten,
depressed and lonely,
But then the knob turns,
Lights flick on,
you flop on the bed in front of my shelf.

SICK:

Sick of being caught in this cage you see,
Can’t stand your lies,
Can’t stand that you blame me for,
your inefficiencies,
Sick of living here with you,
Can’t stand that never shoulder any of your own problems,
Can’t stand the way you are oh so fake,
Sick of your yelling and screaming,
tired of looking at you,
Can’t stand for you to look at me,
Can’t stand you at all,
Sick of being caught in this trap,
I’m breaking free.

 

SCARED INSIDE:

I’m scared inside,
the darkness that never leaves,
No matter how many times,
I forgive him,
the pain never recedes,
It hides in the shadows of mind,
the recesses of my mind,
It never really leaves,
I’m scared inside,
where no one ever looks,
or even really sees,
The pain in me,
I can’t make it disappear,
It remains forever it seems,
at times my scar grows bigger,
Is there nothing I can do,
Am I scarred forever,
I am changed,
I can’t go back,
It happened, forever it haunts,
They say it’s not my fault, but his,
But I say, Why me?
That scar it remains,
staring at me time and again,
I’m Scared inside,
will it ever change?

Author's Note

What's your favorite piece, Why? What do you think of the whole collection