Sonny - Theme 42

If you are there...I am here

A smell of cherry blossoms is carried on the warm wind,

All around me is majestic, resplendent and golden,

My kingdom lies before me, I stop and breathe it in,

Who knew this rapturous moment would be stolen?

My castle is beautiful, but pales in my prince's presence,

He is my everything, my only, as I am his,

My dream, my all, part of my very essence,

A savior from loneliness, the epitome of what love is.

Then one day, a grey day, the worst and end of days,

My prince is dragged from me, leaving only remnants of where he was,

I wish and wait, my heart a mess, my head a maze,

I ask God why and he replies "Because, because, because".

My castle falls into the sea, the wind chills to a frozen scream,

I search the kingdom for the warmth of his eyes,

All too suddenly I was lost as terror destroys my dream,

Though I call until my soul is raw, nobody replies.

No-one can tell me where he is, or where he's gone or why,

They've forgotten his face and just keep saying,

"He was never here, you are wrong, we do not lie"

And all the while I stay in sorrow and keep praying.

My kingdom is imprisoning me, and I know reality is nigh,

The trees are withered, the song has vanished into the night.

The sun mourns my prince and turns his face from the sky,

He took with him the colour of life, all is grey and black and white.

Now it is just a house, I'm in an empty room with empty orbs for eyes,

I know he watches me sometimes, his phantom fingers entwined in mine.

He did not die, at night I feel the touch of his hands until sunrise,

He did not leave, in day I watch the blossoms dance, sending me a sign.

I swear I tried, I made friends, found a job, tried my hand at life,

I tried to love another, but my thoughts filled with your voice,

Those Hungarian songs you would sing to me by moon and fire's light,

No other's music could lift me or make my heart rejoice.

I'm certain you're out there somewhere, know in the tower I still stay,

I spent my years in silence, because I know what they were saying,

For there is no warmth without your face, no life with you away.

The castle may be gone but in this cold prison I shall be remaining,

Return to me my prince, and we can break this tower down,

Take me from this world my love, let's run far away from harm,

Reality and time has stolen from me my crown,

I care not, I would trade my life for a minute within your arms.

You are loved, Sonny, still and always,

No matter where you are,

Rejoin me for our numbered days,

Let's heal our stinging scars.

Trapped eternally in this tower of tears,

Alone, searching for you, seeking out your face,

Still sitting silently after all these years,

Just knowing...there's another place.

Author's Note

I'm afraid I cannot explain who he is without sounding mental but please read and review! X Theme 42 of my 50 themes project

(p.s on the ridiculously small off chance you read this Sonny, I wait for you always)

Reviews

[kyam]

Oh my the pain felt and the longing....the enduring of the pain. The heart wrenching loss. Written so well and so beautiful. In hopes of returning soon throughout the whole poem, but not to come, saddens me to no end, but something I must endure. Keeps your attention throughout totally. I'm amazed! Bravo!!....Kyam

[BlaqkShadow]

Thank you for your kind words hun sorry for the long silence my laptop blew up at the start of the year x

[Insight "MH"]

What a wonderful poem you have here. I am sure that this poem has entered the realms of awesomeness and won the heart of "Lady Poetry" ;)

[BlaqkShadow]

Thank you so much for your review hun and taking the time to read through it :D sorry i've been lax my laptop blew up x

[Reshma]

I could visualise this whole poem. It was that clear
The poem allows the reader to imagine it fills in the puzzles required for you to frame your own story .
I think that is the best part.This is a fairy tale for all of us
And a request shall i narrate this to my niece tonight,she needs a different story every night. :)

[BlaqkShadow]

Of course you may, that's so sweet! Let me know if she likes it :D
Thank you so much for your kind words friend, it means a lot to me to have your continued support. X

[Reshma]

Hey I narrated this to my niece and she loved it.She asked me to ask you that whether princess will die there waiting for him ,or she decides to go behind him and find out :) . This poem connects well with everyone who has an ear for a story :) great work dear.

[BlaqkShadow]

Thank you so much :D I'm so glad she liked it. Tell her we simply don't know what happens to the princess...yet

[Sally Hope]

This is so magnificently personal, that at times I had to stop reading. You have put your heart and soul into this, it's clear. And such efforts always pay off, as they've done for this one. You've managed to tell us a whole fairytale-gone-wrong in the span of a few minutes; that's an art in itself, and you should be proud of it. I specially loved the lines:
"Now it is just a house, I'm in an empty room with empty orbs for eyes,
I know he watches me sometimes, his phantom fingers entwined in mine."
Beautifully written, seamlessly crafted, and simply executed. After all, inspirations are drawn from myriad places. Keep writing :)

[BlaqkShadow]

This is a beautiful review honey, thank you so much. It is a personal poem for a million reasons and I've never put anything out there with his name on before so I am so thankful you think it's good :) Thank you X