Humble Beginnings

The rent done went up in my complex, the insulation sucks, sometimes I'd rather be outside cause inside is cold as F**k.

Sometimes I want to get in my car and ride but I am Black so I know better, and my ride is kind of fucked up.

And it's about as bad as my apartment sometimes I rather ride with my windows down cause the inside be cold as hell and I am just glad the window is unstuck.

But now the passenger door is messed up it sticks and won't open up.

My Girl gets upset that she has to cross over the driver seat I wonder if she knows I prefer that the door to work as well and the fact that it doesn't work really bothers me.

I just got the water pump fixed with my last check in short I'm broke as hell. I lost my job in October hopefully I can find some work this week.

My kids don't notice the difference I got too much pride to let them know Daddy ain't had a job in three Months.

Plus I got to pass all these urinalysis so a job ain't the only thing daddy ain't had in three months.

But In morning I plan to take them out to play in the snow. Cause it's been snowing all night and neither of them know.

I will admit I am tired of all these interviews from one to the next all these empty promises with nobody cutting checks.

The Gas prices keep climbing my fuel needle is going the other way.

Sometimes I just want to cry and everybody around me thinks I lack the sensitivity.

This house sucks my car suck and I keep looking at these bills.

Every time I see a Loomis and Fargo Truck past by I subconsciously lick my lips.

But it's funny cause I don't care about the money.

I just want to see my family smile.

But between getting pulled over to check for my insurance information and to make sure that I had my license and my seat belt is on...

I think you get my drift.

It's not much time to play around my Daughter can't be fed by a poked out lip.

Old court cases coming up in interviews and hearing everything that I am doing is wrong.

Every time I go out job hunting I gotta let my head be cold cause I don't wear ball caps and hoods and beanies make me fit the description.

Or somebody reports me for walking through their neighborhood like I'm robbing the b*****s.

I won't let this bullshit get me down I came up through more than this.

My family is reason enough so God give me the strength.