Moist Towelette

Everybody won't understand it.

You left me and thats some crazy s**t.

But this ain't about that pain you left me with.

That was a whole different issue that I will address when you want to address that s**t.

You decided that we need to go separate ways and I wrote poem about it.

Enough said I'm over that.

It's the small facts that surround the situation I really need to address.

Cause more than anything else thats what I can't forget.

I had an idea I wanted to write this similar to the style of the song by phil collins In the Air tonight mix it with some tiny dancer but the tiny dancer would be more the memories of you that you left me with.

you know you leave somebody drowning I saw it but instead of thinking about it like what if it was me that you left there drowning and through out the poem on some crazy s**t the poem creatively lets you know that actually I didn't just see you leave that n***a drowning I died inside before we actually reached that point but the n***a who died I was actually it.

It's been nine years from this day Since I actually cried.

Face down in my pillow where I actually died.

Linen in my face When I vomited Pride and Promised myself that I would never be vulnerable again and It's so hard now that I'm trying.

You told me Love was different with you and you were right It was poisoned and I never should have bit that damn fruit.

I would done anything for...

I turned down your friends when I was with you and I am not talking bout kissing 

I'm talking about full fledge f*****g they come to me like they didn't know what they was missing. I'm thinking maybe I said something wrong until your friends started list s**t I didn't  even remember until they reminded me Cause you told them our business but what I didn't want to do is become that n***a so I kept all that s**t inside thinking I could better the picture.

But when I turned your friends down I figured they be against me now that the picture was clearer that I was your man and real they didn't stand a chance of turning me into a grimy n***a.

So know when we went or separate or how ever you want to say it you know I am brutally honest when you fucked and left me.

My phone blew the hell up with females who I only knew by way of you knowing me.

Which I will say for the record Yeah I smoke Weed. Smoked it even more so then and when I am high I don't mind talking to anybody about anything.

This is your best friend  even today who number came up as I was heading outside after playing madden to roll another blunt. 

Still in my normal routine I sat on the hood of my baby, my 63 impala rolling my weed.

Cause I loved to look at the stars they still inspire me.

Anyway my phone rings and it's her your best friend you know who I mean.

saying how she hasn't seen me in so long how she was starting to miss me.

So I been around for awhile I am aware of this three way thing.

I am blunted out of my mind but thinking this might help me get you back with you  turning her down like I did when we was together but now it's different cause you get to see that I am a stand up N***a pardon my speech.

I am like word. what you mean?

She like I like you for real though But you was always with...your name rhymes and everything but like I said I ain't that type of nigaa And I stand on Morals with both of my feet. Wouldn't lie to you to save my Life and I really don't care that you think thats sweet.

Oh is what I said and she said do you think you could ever see yourself going out with me.

I said you pretty and everything thank you you sweet but you would have to take that up with her.

(I put her cause your name rhymed and your name is actually what i said that night)

She said y'all been apart for a while now you ain't even been around in while.

But you still had my heart but I already knew that won't the part that had her interest.

So said hey heres the thing talk to her and get back to me just to end the conversation.

She said thats my friend though I said oh I see what you mean.

Well, I will call her and get back to you don't worry I will say it was my idea and had nothing to do with it and she will never hear this from my lips aka your friend is the devil and you will probably never read this.

thats when I heard the phone click.

I knew I had you back and I was ready to be done with this space time apart and all this Bullshit.

For the record I ain't saying your friends weren't attractive but I don't do disloyal and you don't understand how you had my heart under a spell. where I am from it ain't a problem for a n***a to get tail the problem comes in finding a Woman who dedicated to you the same way and also stands on the same morals that helps with a relationship when it comes to morale.

For the record I would rather had dry Jack my dick with rubbing alcohol than to f**k anyone else but you not to mention your friends.

It hurts me a lot that you didn't know that was true.

Sit down and talk to your mother ask her who is one person besides herself and God who she would never doubt Loves and would never hurt you.

Author's Note

Honest to god I had a page full of notes for this poem but it when another way. If you hated this the other version might have left you smiling as you went to the next page cause I rather my pain bring you all smiles as a learning toll than to just throw it away. i didn't edit i just typed sorry for errors.