Trapped

Zachary has Duchennes Muscular Dystrophy. Still no cure :( Is this how he feels.

TRAPPED

WHAT IS GOING ON? 

WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY? 

WHY IS IT THAT NO ONE UNDERSTANDS? 

HOW IS IT THAT I FEEL ALL ALONE? 

AS IF I AM DROWNING!

AS IF MY BODY CANNOT COOPERATE.

I AM A GOOD BOY! 

I COOPERATE!

I FOLLOW THE RULES.

I STUDY.

I DO MY WORK. 

I SHOWER AND GO TO BED WHEN I AM TOLD. THEN WHY? 

OH WHY!? DOES MY OWN BODY NOT RESPOND TO MY REQUESTS? 

DOES ANYONE? ANYONE? UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL? 

MY SOUL KNOWS EXACTLY WHAT IS GOING ON. 

MY MIND IS AS SHARP AS A SCAPEL. 

YET, IT IS MY MUSCLES THAT DO NOT RESPOND THE WAY THEY SHOULD. 

IT IS MY MUSCLES THAT CONTINUE TO WEAKEN. 

EVERYDAY, MY MIND TELLS MY BODY WHAT TO DO, 

AND EVERYDAY IT IS THE SAME THING.

FRUSTRATING, NERVE WRACKING, INCOPREHENSIBLE AND FRIGHTNING. 

TO KNOW WHAT EXACTLY IS HAPPENING TO YOUR OWN BODY, 

BUT TO HAVE NO CONTROL HOW IT MOVES, FEELS OR REACTS, TO YOUR OWN DEMANDS. 

WHY AM I ME? WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME? 

IS IT THAT I AM I BEING PUNISHED? 

DOES GOD NOT HAVE A HEART?

I KNOW, IN MY HEART THAT IS NOT THE CASE.  

I KNOW, DEEP, DEEP DOWN INSIDE THAT I AM A SPECIAL PERSON.  

I HAVE THAT FEELING, 

THAT I AM HERE FOR A REASON. 

PERHAPS IT IS TO SHOW OTHERS STENGTH? 

PERHAPS IT IS TO SHOW OTHERS DIGNITY? 

PERHAPS IT IS TO SHOW OTHERS SELF HOPE?

WHATEVER IT IS, I AM ME WITH OR WITHOUT THIS BODY.

I MAY FEEL TRAPPED IN A BODY THAT DOES NOT LISTEN.

I MAY FEEL TRAPPED IN A LIFE THAT MOST COULD NOT LIVE.

BUT I CANNOT AND WILL NOT FEEL TRAPPED IN MY MIND, OR IN MY SOUL.

I AM NOT TRAPPED, FOR I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN FREE.

I AM NOT TRAPPED AT ALL BECAUSE I AM, AND HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THE PERSON THAT I AM

THE PERSON THAT IS ME!

Reviews

[hmm]

Such a pondering intriguing write,
Makes one go deep in thought.
Nicely espressed feelings

[*** Hey Jude***]

The questions you ask are poignant, and give way to a thought provoking write. The imagery of emotion you share is powerful. You end this piece with strength amongst the questions we all ask at some point in life. You are never trapped, knowing who you are, and who you are growing to be. ~ Jude :-)

[reflectingus]

This is really sad and yet, impressive because you spread awareness about Duchennes Muscular Dystrophy. I feel so bad for Zachary, but the last part is so very true. You must feel lucky for you are living a life, and nothing, NOTHING can ever bring your hopes down, and it is time to prove others wrong. I have heard of miracles, many people have been successful, despite their shortcomings. And that hope, that determination, is exactly the attitude to keep :)
And about the poem, the message is very powerful, and I love how you emphasize with caps lock. It is true, that maybe, I won't really understand the feeling, because I've never felt it. I can't just say "I know how you feel", but I can definitely assure and give my support. Great job. :)