Can't Stop Thinking About Her

Is it wrong to miss someone
It is wrong to want someone
Someone who can't be yours
Someone so out of reach
Someone you feel is perfect for you
But it cannot be
There is someone else in between

And these thoughts rack my brain
Every thought is a mental pain
I wish I could be with her
I wish I could be her one
But there is another one
Someone who treats her well
And I'm glad, but I still want her
Yeah I still need her

And what is wrong with my heart
I want someone who is not mine
And it's nothing to do with lust
But love I feel
I think this emotion is just too real
I don't know if I should feel this pull and tug
It's causing my heart to hurt
'Cause I wonder what could be
If she could truly love me
Even though she is with another
Something I can't seem to get over

And I know she's happy now
It's consolidation to my loneliness
But still I feel the pull
Of her beauty and grace
Of that kind and loving face
I wonder if I could be the one
But I think such thoughts are almost criminal
Because I want her to never hurt
I just want her to be alright and happy
And for that to be I have to let go and pray
That her here and now works every day
A double edge sword of thought that cuts too often

Will I ever get over this feeling and move on
Can I find it within myself to be brave and honorable
She's happy now and that should be enough
Yet I still long for her more than I should
It's like an addiction that has taken over
There is no methadone or mantra that can heal this
Only a fix of another kind
I hope I can find my way over this love
I hope I can smile and mean it
And show her that I am glad she's found the love she's wanted
And stop being sad that it's not me in the throne of her heart

Author's Note

Sometimes we want more of thse close friendships that we realize.

Reviews

[Brianna Brie]

Your killing me. Stop!!! Wow...so heartfelt and worse yet I can relate. Appreciate your honesty in this one. Thanks for sharing. Well done!