I Can't Change for You

Change. It's something that we all go through, we avoid, we welcome, we fear, etc. When change is done for personal betterment, it a matter of wanting to change. When change involves others, that's when it all becomes complicated.

Free expression, free to fail
My mind is a runaway, out on bail
I am crazy, loosing ground
My head is aching with all I've found
My mind is killing me
Is it a habit I can't change
Is something that I did said
Something that I didn't say or do
So many things I did all wrong
Baby I didn't mean to offend you

And I am a liar, I am fake
If I ever said I'd change for you
'Cause if I can't change for myself
What makes you think I could change for you

So many things that I've let slip
Here and there a mental trip
I'm not perfect, I'm not that vain
But I still refuse to apologise for everything
I don't know if everything was truly all that bad
And who hell are you, yeah who the hell are you

And I am crazy, I am insane
I don't mean to hurt or anything
But I'm a little damaged, and not quite right
But if you believe this will all change in just one day
Maybe I'm not the only one who a little off in the head

What you want I do not know
I can't read minds, I'm not clairvoyant
I don't even understand half of the things on my mind
All I know is I am trying
To be something better that I was before
But I can't change in one day, or overnight
It's got to be real, It's got to be for me
Because if it's not, it's manufactured, it's not real
And it will end in time
So baby when I say I can't change for you, don't take offense
It's not meant to cut or cause harm
It's just can't be just for you and not me

I am crazy, I'm quite insane
I don't mean to hurt or anything
I am liar, a bit of fake
Trying to skate by for my own sake
But want to be better, I want be more
I just need time, and some piece of mind
A moment to relax in time
So just be patient, and it will all be fine
But if you think it's instant, you're out of line
So bear with me baby, it just takes time

Reviews

[Amanda]

isn't this always the truth....if you can't change for yourself, what makes someone think you can change for them overnight?

a well written piece. the subject is something that i can relate to quite well, because i myself am in the midst of changing, not so much for someone else, but for myself. good job.

Always,

Amanda