Untitled.

dated 05/14/2007

Once again at the end of another day,
my insecurities towards my emotional future
catch up...
I've been "fine" for about a week and a half.
In some moments I really believe i'll make it through
Unharmed.
but all that confidence fades away in a splt second.
When I think not of how it was with us.
but how its going to be...for me...just me.
Will I ever trust again?
Doubt it...and it scares the crap out of me.
It all comes down to having to open up...
and invest...give...love...
That seems mostly unlikely right now..
Im shutting out every single person that tries to get closer
to me, for whatever reasons...
I dont want it.
That leaves me with only one way out...
Which for me seems as a dead-end that
I seem to stuck in
once again...