Twisted

Traumatic times and violent blows;

Hidden secrets that nobody knows.

I sleep eyes-open, hands always fisted.

I guess you could say that my mind is twisted.

 

Chronic neurotic;

Some say I’m demonic.

I can’t always remember;

I’m loaded up on narcotics.

So wired anxious

I shut down, enclose.

I have so many secrets

I’ll never expose.

I take meds because

I’m sick in the head.

I swear to be crazy

to the day of my death.

 

I’m wise beyond your wildest dreams.

Happiness is just a scary thing.

I try to show people that I am gifted,

but all they see is that I’m dark and twisted.

 

I’m running down

the dimly-lit corridors

with extra-padded walls

and outside-locked doors.

Determined depression;

Heavy on my brain.

I fell way off my rocker;

Pathologically insane.

No self-worth,

low self-esteem.

Personality disorder

to the extreme.

 

Self-harm is pleasure, it’s what I need.

Sometimes I lie and let myself bleed.

No, I’m not dead; My mind has just drifted.

I can’t help that I’m so sick and so twisted.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

This is hard and cold poetry. You were direct, honest and wanted nothing.
"Self-harm is pleasure, it’s what I need.
Sometimes I lie and let myself bleed.
No, I’m not dead; My mind has just drifted.
I can’t help that I’m so sick and so twisted."
The above lines. Needed sometimes. We need to bleed and demand payment. Thank you Black Widow for sharing the amazing poetry.
Coyote

[Lykos]

I love this, I tend to like reading darker poems then almost all the other kinds. Part of this sounded just like a rap, which is awesome. Really enjoyed this, well done!!

[R J Askew]

Well articulated. Strong message. Many would share the outlook captured.

[Shannon]

Dark, but well written. There is a coherent progression that belies that difficult topicm

I might have a few suggestions, if you are looking for some ideas.

[Long Whispers]

You've presented your pain in the poem so amazingly. It seems so real.
Good job!
God bless you!

[Dr. YumnaKay]

"I’m wise beyond your wildest dreams.
Happiness is just a scary thing.
I try to show people that I am gifted,
but all they see is that I’m dark and twisted."

This is a dark write for sure. Often enough, people tend to see what they want to see even though we try to make them see otherwise.
I wouldn't say it's a twisted state but rather a phase of life which everyone goes through once at some time of life..
Well penned.