An Unhealthy Relationship

I wrote this piece about my ex and how unhealthy our relationship was. It's supposed to send the message that it doesn't matter how much you want to hold onto someone if you deserve better.

I’m stuck in a dream where I’m locked away, confined,

but then I see your face and suddenly I don’t mind.

Although I hate it here,

I’ve got nothing to fear,

because you feel so safe and so kind. 

 

Of course in all actuality

we have to snap back to reality,

so let’s talk about our relationship

and its functionality.

We met in December;

I liked your personality,

you loved my mentality,

plus we had the same

mental abnormality.

It wasn’t until later

I saw your lack of congeniality.

But due to my rationality

I saw your true potentiality

and while I fought for you,

lost sight of my morality.

 

Three summers ago we parted

and you never ended up coming home.

By the time it was over I realized

I had turned completely to stone.

I’m angry because you wasted my time.

I gave you everything and you left me behind.

Was I a fool to think you were mine?

My heart is filled with bitterness.

My world is filled with emptiness.

Now I see who you are for the first time.

And I committed no crime by being kind.

I will go on without you and I’ll be just fine.

I searched all over before I finally found a reason

to bow and accept the end of a love, or of a season.

 

 

I am who I am today

all because of you.

I never imagined I’d be

the woman I turned into.

I can’t connect with people at all;

Now I hardly have the desire. 

My ability to trust is shut down,

because I spent so much time with a liar.

 

See, I’ve totally lost my connection;

Not just my sense of affection.

She took my life by the section

and slowly reduced it all to ash.

It took time to get started

in a different direction.

I thought I’d die over your defection

and then again later over my abjection,

and all this was even before your rejection.

Remember, there was a time

when you called me “your perfection,“

and when everyone said you were bad,

I was the only objection.

Then you showed me you were

only capable of projection,

but what I’m needing is protection.

I realized I deserve better

after a hard look at my reflection.

 

Now I’m looking back

and seeing it for the first time.

Of everything,

being yours was my worst crime.

There is nothing wrong with being kind.

If you search for some universal sign,

you’ll be surprised what you may find.

I need to move on without you

and leave you behind.

I have ice in my veins

and you’re poison to my mind.

I searched all over before I finally found a reason

to bow and accept the end of a love, or of a season.

Author's Note

There are two obvious places in this piece where I go off on a tangent of using the same rhyme about a dozen times. It's helpful to know reading this, that when I wrote it, I was listening to rap (specifically Eminem).

Reviews

[jacob erin-cilberto]

it feels like rap...not a big rhyme fan...but this has quite a clever rhythm to it...one suggestion is to not put a label on it...just let the readers relate how they will..poetry is a wide open genre...but if we are told how to read a particular piece, i think it loses some of its magic...and this piece works just fine without the tag.

j.

[Black Widow]

Yes, I was listening to rap when I wrote this but I didn't exactly know what better to call it than poetry.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

oh it's poetry....that was not a slam...i was complimenting the rhythm of it..

j.

[APOORVA]

Three summers ago we parted
and you never ended up coming home.
By the time it was over I realized
I had turned completely to stone.
such an amazing lines, superbly written

[Coyote Poetry]

I liked the story told in the poetry. The lesson of love leading to being alone. All of us had learn this lesson.
"I searched all over before I finally found a reason
to bow and accept the end of a love, or of a season."
The above lines. Last place we shall know before we give-up for awhile. I liked the poem. Feel of real life. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote