Used and Abused

When fighting with sadness....do you give in? Do you put up? Or do you smile and grin...say I've had enough?

It's just not fair

It's just not right

I'm the only one

to put up a fight

No it's just not fair,

No I'm not all right

playing this charade

every day and night

Well little doll...

It's true what they say

But what in the world

Makes you act this way?

All I did was form a smile...

Nothing comes for free

Baby take a look

Do you like what you see?

I'm the perfect piece

I can mold into place

What twists my mind

won't show on my face

Do what you want

I'm the perfect dream

Say what you want

I won't even scream

At Least

     That's What

               It Seems...

In my mind

I lose all control

leave my body behind

and go with my soul

In my world

I can take command

Striking back at

every stretched out hand

I won't do as you want

I won't play your game

But reality whispers in

everything's the same

Smile don't cry

There's no where to run

This it how it is

What's done is done

Put on a show

Don't put up a fight

Keep telling yourself

Everything's all right...

Author's Note

I wrote this maybe a month or two before I finally made the decision to divorce my husband...ending an 8 yr long relationship with someone that I loved was a difficult decision,,,but I had finally decided I'd had enough.I realized that I was the only one in love...best decision I ever made ^_~ maybe some happy works next???

Reviews

[Writergurl]

In my mind
I lose all control
leave my body behind
and go with my soul

I have done this part, trying to figure things out, things will get better.

[Chunky the urban book a..]

I like your poem s**t is real :) hope u can stop by and read my 3 chapters of my book what goes around comes around..Tell me what u think :)

[Tim White]

Maybe I would have acted differently if I had seen this sooner...Maybe it only makes sense now after so much time has passed and our lives are what they are today. You never deserved to see the person the stuggle inside me turned me into. I regret every day of my life the decisions I made and find myself turning it over in my head with tears in my eyes wishing I could rewrite the tragic tale of the star crossed lovers. Nothing I could ever do or say will ever change how things played out but at the end of the day I find myself sitting alone in a bathroom in silence remembering the days long past. My daughter...who I should have been better for...who I know suffers without me because of me. My life...which couldn't have been better that I complained about daily. My wife...my wife who loved me unconditionally and gave me the world and I could only ask for more. I used to think in the back of my head everything that happened made you stronger now I finally realize how much you were hiding behind that smile and it breaks my heart. I can't even think about some of the things that happened...Maybe one day years from now you will read this maybe not. Just know that I will never regret walking across the street and yelling group hug to the woman I would one day love with all my heart and throw away like a fool when times got tough. I only wish I could have realized so much sooner what a fool I really was. I hope he really treats you well...I hope he does all the things I didn't do that I wish I could now. I hope that every day of your life is as perfect and magical as the night the sky fell down for us...as much as I hurt I wish you nothing but happiness
-The man who lost it all

[Serenity Faith]

Blind Is The Heart

[Coyote Poetry]

"Smile don't cry
There's no where to run
This it how it is
What's done is done"
The words felt honest and true. The above lines made the reader think. The poem asked questions and showed how much we can put up with. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote