chapter 3

POV Kathy

I just had to get out of that house, those thoughts, those horrible thoughts in my mind. It kept repeating and repeating. It was like torture but it just wouldn’t end. I just had to  get away. After finally finding the strength to stand up and speak. That I knew I would be able to speak properly, I stood up and left. As soon as I was outside I started running. I just needed some freedom, one step, two step, three steps, four, five, six,  just count the steps, don’t think of anything else. Eleven, twelve, thirteen. Just keep counting, fourteen, fifteen, sixteen, the thoughts almost started returning back, no I yell in my head, keep counting, faster, it has to be faster, twenty, twenty-one, the steps kept coming. Not fast enough, because the thoughts came back even faster, forty, forty-one, I just had to keep running.  After 20 miles, a sting came in my back, oh no not that injury again. I walk to the side, apparently on the middle of the bridge, with the river flowing under it, I  lean on the edge of the bridge.  Looking down, the deep dark river spreading out, everywhere. While standing still my thoughts start returning. No! I want them gone, I almost yell out, but the lessons my dad gave me, kept me calm, and emotionless, what I was for everyone. I wish I had no emotions for myself. It seemed like nothing could stop them though. I looked over the edge of the bridge, what if I jumped, would anyone miss me? No, no one would, everyone was.. My thoughts stopped there, and I couldn’t be more happy, or less happy when they spot, I don’t know. That was kind of the  problem, I didn’t knew. I wondered what I actually knew. I looked over the bridge again, I started wondering why not, why not everyone left me, everyone will. So why didn’t I have the right to leave? Those thoughts consumed me while climbing on the edge of the bridge. Why not, everyone has left, now it’s my turn. My turn to walk out the exit. Just before I jumped I heard a voice, ‘’Don’t you dare!’’, it sounded loud and clear. It sounded like my.. I shake my head, it can’t be. I let one hand go over the edge to look down again. Now the voice yells louder, ‘’Don’t you dare’’ The voice got louder now, it almost scared me that much, that I almost fell. ‘’don’t you dare, little bee’’ I look up surprised. I look left and right, I shake my head, that couldn’t be.. it’s not, not possible. I look over the edge again. ‘’Don’t you dare little bee’’ I shake my head out of illusion, I try to jump, not really intended, but my mind was so set on jumping I jumped. Now the weirdest thing happened some force, blew me on the other side of the bridge. I shake my head, auch that hurts.  Then the voice start coming back. ‘’I told you not to do it little bee.’’ I stand up and start running as fast as I can, the only one who ever called me like that, was my mom. My mom…while my knee hurts like hell, my hips are banging from the pain, I start sprinting again. No thoughts of my mom allowed.  It’s OFF LIMITS! My thoughts yell in my head.  I sprint through the pain, through the foggy cloudy thoughts. Run…Run… Run… those thoughts is all I can think of. All that I’m allowed to think.  How could my mom say that, she is the only one who knows those words. I shake my head and start to run harder. While forcing my knee and my hip to move, I need to run, only run, clear my mind and clear my thoughts. I keep repeating that, until the sun goes down. Then I stop, I see a sign board, I have no clue how far I ran, or where I am, no clue at all. It only says ‘’Florida’’. My very distant relative lived in Lady lake.

I look at the moon, its standing that angle that it must be around midnight, when I left it was sunny, all sun.  How could the day go by so fast? How could that have happened. I don’t even have a cell phone with me. So I can’t call anyone, not that I would have called anyone, ow no this thoughts starting again. I start humming songs and look around. Where lived my aunt again, I turn my back to sign I just walked against, and start walking back, seeing if I recognized anything. The only thing I remember are flashes, nothing big actually, nothing major, but to little to find my way home, home…

No not thinking of that. I should concentrate on the road. Where did Miss sulivain live again? I started wondering, but I had no clue.  No clue at all.. So  I start counting my steps, my photographic memory helped with that, one, two, three, four, corner, and so on and so on.

It should work.  I keep counting, and the moon is setting lower and lower, then I see the bridge again. That bridge, I shake my head, nothing weird happened, just imaging it, just upset, I whisper, sorry dad I let you down, I showed emotion. ‘’No worries little bee, your dad won’t blame you. You’re acting though.’’ I hear the voice of my mom.  I had no tears left, otherwise I would have cried, she always used to say that to me. No! I yell, NO!, it can’t be.. I yell in myself.

Walking further while counting, that keeps my mind busy at least. One, two, three, four, five, six. The thoughts keep coming back, I think of  a few words, to not hear it tonight. ‘’Not to hear tonight, would be a bliss, save that for another time’’

I kept repeating it the rest of the night, or early morning better said. Then I turned around the corner, and as soon as I do that, Miss Sullivan, opens the door. Looking mad at me. I shake my head, you got to be kidding me.  I walk through the hall way and sit on the same spot on the couch, waiting for a lecture. Mumbling, she has no right.           

Reviews

[Aurora Lynn]

A little bit confusing, but otherwise very good. Reading on~

~Aurora Lynn

[amdc101]

I just had to get out that house- out of that house?

I think we just got a taste of why she is special. Interesting part with the mom nickname, makes me curious. I'm also wondering why Miss Sulivain would be mad...I'll read on!

[halflives]

Interested, very much so. Reading on!

[Coyote Poetry]

20 miles and then returned. I like the use of numbers and the use of her memory. I like how she return home pissed off and safe. A excellent chapter.
Coyote

[BrynnaW.]

I liked it... Just shorter chapter which will be changed when you fix the dialogue. If you don't know what I mean go ahead and message me. I like it though. It is very interesting! Good job and keep on writing!

[TheElfPrincess]

Another good chapter. I like it very much.