Just A Friend

Just a little love story.

She was my friend not my best friend just a friend I somewhat felt as though she forced this on me When I look back at it I sometimes wonder if we were even right for each other. The 4 months we spent together were the best I ever had with anyone I really started to fall for her we held hands, talked, laughed, and spent hours together. I couldn't believe it! A girl as beautiful and wonderful as she was actually wanted to be with me I was literally living my dream. I could tell her so many things, nobody ever made me feel that way I had something with her something I rarely get with anyone I know now that she didn't feel that way. 
I never expected for us to stay together forever and I surely wasn't expecting to marry her or anything special however I knew I wanted to be with her I wanted to love her endlessly and Effortlessly. It was easy to make her giggle even with my twisted sense of humor and God! She had the best giggle I had ever heard it was like music to my ears I even let her borrow my favorite Ween album (Chocolate and Cheese) I still haven't got it back you dumb b***h!
I never knew I could be that happy I never doubted her and she never doubted me after 4 good months of being with her I decided it was time, Time to say the words I never heard or said to any girl in my life I summoned up all my courage like a lion getting ready to kill I was invincible nothing was gonna stop me.
I was gonna surprise her, I saw her there with her ex boyfriend "They must be fighting?" I thought....Until I saw it something I wish I never witnessed in my life she kissed him they hugged and went to her car and drove off.
My heart stopped my mind went blank I smiled and walked away I didn't really care where I went I just needed to leave.
That was it! it was over! She didn't tell me anything about this it was like I meant nothing to her I really didn't wanna see anyone anymore I just went home popped some Zoloft then smoked the night away.
And the next day She was just a friend.